wasted hours
I, of course, am an idiot
I trusted someone who didn’t want to be trusted
I didn’t even think about it
I mean, on monday he told me that he really liked me, that obviously we would wait to have sex cuz I have herpes
but he kissed me like he meant it
and then on tuesday something changed
and now he barely will hug me
and he hasn’t said anything
but, it’s fairly obvious
I think
I’m extremely insecure
I’m not going to blame herpes completely, it was there before I had it
but it certainly has made things worse
and I have no friends anymore so I have way too much time to think about it.
I’m tempted to march over there right now and demand an explanation
if I didn’t seem crazy enough already
I mean, could he really lose interest in me just like that?
blah
more caffiene
that sounds like a good idea.
<3 phoebe