nautica
(My life is more than you know
than you ever cared to know
sometimes I feel like my head is a narration of words proving to you exactly how much you don’t.)
I don’t know what I’m looking for
I’ve always felt like a seeker, but now
single for almost 2 months for the the first time in a year
I’ve looked at options and they are all wrong
yeah, it’d be fun for a while
but it couldn’t possibly last
no one to even fantasize about
I feel like my soul is an incompatible one.
there is no other sock in my pair
I’ll be forever mismatched.
in other news, I sent my unsent mail entry to J.
he responded on monday
and it’s funny
because the email sums up our entire relationship, and I’m sure he didn’t mean it like that.
he said that I put him through a lot when we dated, because I wasn’t over M
and that I shouldn’t guilt him about not telling me he was dating someone new. 5 days later.
And that I was really hot, and it was really hard not the have sex with me the last night he crashed on our couch.
and there it is. Our relationship in a nutshell.
life is funny that way sometimes.