Thoughts

I don’t feel too well.
I feel like crying. But i have no reason to.
Bleh.

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I don’t ever want to see her again.
I don’t want to hear her name.
I don’t want to hear about her.
I just don’t want to see anything that involves her, ever again.

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-sigh-
I miss Neil so much.
So much that it kind of hurts.
I miss that one week we had, with no one else around.
I’ve felt pretty alone without him this whole week. I mean i’ve gone out, i’ve seen my friends, watched movies, went to the beach.
I have people to hang out with, but i dont want anyone else. Blah.
🙁 I love you .

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I feel like i’ve become the new Dr Phil for my friends lately.
Seems like everynight, someone new has a problem.
I’m exhausted. And my sleeping schedule is all messed up.

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Holy Smokes. We’re half way through summer break, gahh !
The thought of school coming up is frightening.
Grade 11.. doesn’t sound like too much fun. Normally people get 8 courses a year , right? 
I’m taking 10. Oh geez, 2011 will be the death of me.

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Brian has been non-stop ranting to me about Katie lately.
I don’t mind.. i like being able to help. But it’s the same thing everyday.. and judging from what he says she’s very ungrateful and quite.. stupid. Just stupid.

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I saw Inception yesterday.
GREATMOVIE(: 
It was kind of confusing…
Right when i figured out what was going on, they threw something else in there and im like ”what just happened?"
Anyway, i loved it. Haha.

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Lastly, i sat by myself, and came up with this…
Nothing’s perfect. Don’t expect too much, or you’ll only be disappointed. Aim high, but keep it within reach and within reason. Stop looking back on the bad times you cannot change. The past is over. What matters is what you do with tomorrow. Find a reason to smile, a reason to wake up everyday, and a reason to keep going. And Never let go. You’re bound to fall one day, and maybe you’ll fall more than once. It’s going to hurt. And it’s going to be hard. But if you believe in yourself, you can do it.
There will always be people out there who love you, and want the best for you.
There will always be that [one person], who will stick with you until the end.
That person will stand on your side no matter what, hold your hand when there’s no light, and that person will never give up on you. You might not realize they’re there but you’ll find them eventually.

.Goodnight all ,
I love you Neil ,
Pheebs.