Raindrops

Raindrops by Regina spektor
 

Alright.
Here’s a short rambling regarding yesterday.. and well the past week. Please don’t ask about it. I don’t feel like sharing.. but i want to let it out. I didn’t realize what i did was upsetting you. I cannot believe i was so oblivious to this, and so ignorant. I didn’t know how it felt. But now i do. More or less i deserve this, though i hate it so so much. I’m going insane. Perhaps i didn’t take it so seriously the last time it was mentioned, but now i know, i just know. Everything that i said i’d change and do, i’ll follow through with it. Watch. I’ll prove it. But i need help, you need to tell me what i’m doing wrong when i do it. I guess that’s .. that ? I don’t know what else to say , cause there’s nothing i can do to defend myself , because i really was wrong. I’m sorry.

Today was one of those long, boring 11 hour days of school.
It consisted of teaching a bunch of 13 year olds, writing a timed english essay, a biology test, and dance company rehearsal.
Teaching.. wasn’t so bad. At least it’s over and done with for the week.
I have to suffer another essay tomorrow. And i am definitely not looking forward to biology.
Dance rehearsal was a pain, the teacher started placing people into sections for our piece. I got pulled out of a part because of my stupid knee. (I have yet to explain what happened). But she thinks i’ll mess up my knee even more if i dance.. soo she gave me a slightly easier part. Doesn’t make me too happy .. i want her to push me, kind of..
Anyway, here’s what happened with my knee. I was in my morning dance class (The regular class .. not company c: ), and everyone is sitting in a circle on the floor discussing the winter show details. I had to leave class 15 minutes early because of a biology trip. So i get up, and i heard someone mention "Club can’t even handle me" by Florida. My reaction is to run across the room (with my socks on) , and do some crazy arm waving thing. The result of this .. was a nice slip. I landed directly onto my left knee. Everyone laughed. It was horrible.
Well, it was pretty funny at the time .. i laughed too. But it’s not very funny anymore. I’ve got a bruise about 3 inches wide. It’s black and purple and swollen. I can’t walk without limping. Oh joy. I’m a genius.

Off to do some homework ..