2/16/06
Well, I’ve pretty much crashed. I haven’t been to school or work since Tuesday. I got a cold or sinus infection or something and I just don’t want to go out and do anything. I got a call today from the guy that wants me to take the medical device engineering job. He wants me to call the HR over there to set up an interview. Will I be betraying my current employer if I take this job? Of course I will be. Can my supervisor let me go without getting pissed at me? I hate it when I know that people hate me. But I want to start my life. Am I just hiding behind this current job and the welding thing because I’m scared? I just don’t know what to do.
If they want to hire me for this job, should I take it?
Pros:
-Better pay – I could theoretically start out making 53-55k a year as opposed to making only $15/hr for my current job.
-A regular job – I could be a fulltime part of the staff indefinitely, whereas this current job is only a temp job for about 6 months.
-More well defined path – this would offer some security because I would be only concentrating on one thing during the day instead of many things like I am now.
Regular hours would limit anxieties – It would also contain more regular hours, instead of the crazy schedule I keep now. This could potentially limit my anxiety attacks.
-From who I’ve talked with, the company seems pretty laid back and nice. I don’t have any problems with anyone there…yet.
Cons:
-It would be doing something that I am not really interested in – I mean, come on, biomedical hardware? Bleh. I have little to no interest in helping to design hardware for blood/glucose monitors.
-I would have to leave my current job – everyone there is nice and has made great accomidations for me so that I can work there. My supervisor is awesome and I would hate to have to tell her that I am leaving to go work elsewhere.
-I’m scared shitless that things wont work out there and if I burn this bridge where I am working at now I’ll probably have to go look elsewhere.
This isn’t working. I don’t think I have enough information. I have too much speculation and uncertainties in the list of things I am writing down so the whole excersise is probably moot. I guess at this point I will have to take this interview to get more information to help me make this decision. Looks like I’ll be making that appointment for an interview.
Questions to ask at interview:
1. how much are you going to give me to do this?
2. what health care options and benefits do you offer?
3. how flexible is my work time?
4. do i get vacation and holidays? are they paid?
5. do i get some personal/sick days? how many?
6. how often will i get reviewed for promotions and pay raises?
So, next step, do the interview. Get more information.
In other news, not last night, but the night before and the night before that, I had two radically different dreams, but they were both centered around Stephanie. I miss her. I really do. We were pretty good friends and I hope that she is doing well. Out of pure nostalgia from her memory I decided to join one of those class reunion sites. I never expected to come across her name, but I did. Well, I think it was her. The graduation date and high school was right, and as far as I know her name was unique enough at that school that it couldnt be someone else….so, I sent her a message through this service and I hope to hear back from her.
Thats all that I want to write for now. I have to now decide if I’m going to go into work today. If I am I had better start getting ready.