Too Tired To Write

Another week, another seven days of life just kind of going by. I’m just going through the motions at this point. As I mentioned in a previous entry, I’m not in the holiday spirit. I just don’t care. I just want January 2, 2025 to get here so that life can return to normal. Until then, I will remain miserable.

I’m really trying to keep my negative thoughts at bay. It’s been a struggle, but still, I try.

I still go to work and I still get to the office early as hell. The income is still coming in and I’m still doing all the overtime to which I have grown accustomed. Work remains a necessary evil. What continues to bring me down in the workplace are the myriads of people who also work there, many of whom are bland and otherwise not contributing a damn thing to the place. They’re just there, taking up space and thinking that they’re important. They’re not. There’s a lot of mediocrity there and frankly, it brings my spirits down. I can’t explain why. It just does. I still feel the need to distance myself from those people and for the most part, I think I’m doing a commendable job.

I still hate crowds and being around people. This not only goes for work, but I mean that in a general capacity. With the holiday season being alive and well, I can’t go anywhere without having to battle crowds. This has made me want to do all my Christmas shopping online. I’ll run the post office daily, if not multiple times in the same day, to pick up whatever it is I’ve ordered online, especially if it means that I don’t have to be around and interact with people. People suck. I’ve known this for many years. I just don’t think I’ve written it down, at least not recently.

I intended to write more, but I’m steadily nodding off as I’m trying to keep this entry going. I think my left foot is falling asleep too. I guess waking up at 3:45am, six days a week, might finally be catching up to me. This is probably for the best, being that I was likely going to continue spewing negativity. I’m still probably going to spew this negativity. It just won’t be right now, in this entry.

I’m calling it a night.