Random Thoughts – Car Edition
As a side note, I had actually written this brief entry on Friday (09/27) on my cell phone, which I rarely ever do. I’m just getting around to actually entering it into this hear journal. I’ve been busy.
As I sit here writing this, I am inside of one of our department’s vehicles. Serena is inside of this office in the community with one of our clients. I don’t know what the nature of this visit is, though I understand that it could take up to two hours [it would actually take just under four]. So here I sit, being that I was not allowed to be present during those festivities. I guess this gives me some time to think about things and obviously, write about things as well.
I had to find some excuse to be physically away from the office and if it means having to sit in a car out in the community, then so be it. Some of my more repulsive coworkers are in the office today, so I needed to find some way to not be anywhere near them. Serena wanted to come along for the ride and I did. My supervisor gets it and she did not attempt to stop me from escaping. I also did it as a favor to Serena, even though I’ll admit that I didn’t mind going along for the ride, even though we weren’t technically together. I guess we were together in spirit and I suppose that had to count for something.
I wish I had better coworkers, like I did years ago. Years ago, it seemed that people knew what they were doing and people took some sense of pride in the work they were doing. Maybe it has something to do with the youth moment that has been plaguing the office? Now, with the people the department is bringing in, no one cares. Their work is subpar and many people are lazy. There’s no attention to detail. People can’t seem to put a proper sentence together. Grammar and syntax are afterthoughts. Yeah, the work is getting done, but there’s no thought into how it gets done and the small details are frequently ignored. Maybe I am the last of a dying breed? Maybe I care too much because I like to do quality work, day in and day out? Maybe I have an eye for detail that most people don’t? I can’t explain it, so I don’t really try to. All I know is that with the way that I do things, I inadvertently make other people look bad. I’m not changing my style for anyone, that’s for sure.
I bought Serena lunch today. I do that a lot and it doesn’t bother me. Sometimes she pays for our meals, but that was definitely not the case today. I thought it was cute that she made zero effort to attempt to pay, as if it really was just a given that I would be paying anyway. I didn’t mind. I thought that we had an excellent conversation over lunch, so the experience was definitely worth the price of admission anyway. It seems that we can talk about damn near anything and sometimes it feels that we have. There have been many phone conversations between us where we have literally sat in silence for several minutes. Maybe we just like the idea that the other person is there on an open phone line, rather than not at all? The silence used to be awkward. Now, it’s almost become our normal.
That’s as far as I got. I think I actually fell asleep in the car and took a brief nap not long after I stopped writing. I could’ve continued the entry on my phone, but my battery was getting low and I didn’t have my charging cable with me. The day itself ended well enough. Serena finally returned to the car and she thought I was upset because of how long I had to spend in the car. I might’ve looked upset, but I kept telling her that I wasn’t and that I understood the situation. I had also told her that I wasn’t mad at her and that I didn’t blame her for the way that afternoon played out. I want to think that she believed me. I was being honest with her. I knew it wasn’t her fault. That whole adventure kept me out of the office, so in actuality, Serena was perhaps unknowingly doing me a favor.
I wasn’t mad at her and and in the end, I was successful in avoiding those shitty coworkers just as I had intended, so as far as I see it, the day was a win-win all around.
And I owe it all to Serena…