Disappointing And Unreliable

I know that in life, we’re always going to deal with some measure of disappointment.  It’s all part of the life process.  We have our happy moments.  We have our sad moments.  Somewhere in between those two extremes would lie that disappointment.  I tend to not want to rely on others, mostly in an effort to avoid being subject to that disappointment.  I want to say that I’ve said and written this before. 

For the most part, people are unreliable. 

They just are.  I don’t believe that people necessarily mean to be unreliable.  Again, they just are.

I go wrong when I forget this very simple concept and decide to rely on others.  Inevitably, I am let down nearly each and every time.  The key, for me anyway, is to be self-sufficient and independent.  I need to minimize the extent to which I rely on others for anything. 

I think this is where I revert to my introverted tendencies, to where I have to maintain that mentality that I don’t need anyone for anything.  I am already, in some capacity, of the mentality that I need to do for self. 

I don’t need anyone’s attention. 

I don’t need anyone’s help. 

I don’t need anyone’s advice. 

I don’t need anyone for anything.

It looks like I am once again on an island, left to my own devices. 

Left to my own…I like the sound of that.