An Unspoken Allure

I am wholly convinced that there is some kind of tension there.  Serena knows it.  She has to.  She just has to.  How could she not?  I know it’s there and I’m not going to deny it.  I’d be a fool to deny it.  The biggest challenge, as I see it, will be actually having that conversation with Serena (if we are ever to have that conversation at all).  I am aware that just even initiating that conversation could be difficult.  Having the actual conversation just adds to the emotional burden.  As funny as this all might sound and as confident as I sounded moments earlier…what if I’m wrong?

Now, with that and with my current mentality, I could very well end this entry and leave it at that.  But that wouldn’t make for a an entertaining, thought-provoking, and/or worthwhile entry, now would it?

I have thought about how I would engage in this conversation with Serena.  The following would be, at least in my mind, how that conversation could potentially play out.  Consider this to be merely an excerpt, a small, but flavorful taste, if you will.

“Serena, this might sound a bit awkward and maybe even a bit out of place, and if I am wrong, please let me know and I will stop right here.  This is hard to put into words, but rest assured that there is something in the air between us and I’ve felt it for quite a while now.  I don’t want to label it by the only term that I can come up with (even if that term is very accurate) and maybe that’s because I want there to still be some mystery to it all.  Suffice it to say that there is some strong and intense tension between us and I want to acknowledge that it is there.  If I am feeling it, I can’t help but think that deep down, you might be feeling it too.

How do you think we would even go about addressing this tension, because we both know that it’s there?  What is it that you would want to see happen?  I know what I would want to do to address it and relieve all of the mystery and curiosity that exists.  It would all start with a glance and you know the kind that I’m talking about.  We already do this and baby, we do it all too well.  It’s that sometimes subtle, though at times intense, way that we look at each other, sometimes even when we think that the other person isn’t looking.  From there, I take your hand into mine and feel the softness of that hand, while at the same time, showing you how gentle and warm I can be with my own hand.  This can be for a few moments or several minutes, but holding hands is only the beginning of the touch that we both crave and long for from each other.

From holding hands, we move to the beginning of what would be soft and sensual kissing.  Our lips meeting each other’s would be so heavenly, so divine.  I already stare at your lips constantly, to where I have dreamed of kissing you and doing so in a most satisfying manner, to where you would want more and more, as would I.  From your lips, eventually I would make my way to your neck, before returning to those sensual lips, and then moving on to your ears, both of them, in slow succession.  Maybe in taking a short break from the intensity that will continue to mount, I run my fingers through your hair, gazing into your deep brown eyes in the process.  Then the kissing resumes, this time as my hand starts to explore your body, in a slow and deliberate pace, because the focus is on you and not on the clock or our surroundings”.

That might be enough for now.

As the song goes:

“So I’ma keep all these feelings inside – Keep my dreams alive until the right time”.

For those not in the know, the song I referenced there is “Hey Lover” by LL Cool J.

Whether this conversation as I’ve outlined above ever occurs remains to be seen, but as you can see, I’ve definitely pondered it and imagined what it is I might actually say (and do) to Serena.

It would appear, at least to me, that all Serena and I really need is time and opportunity, because at the very least, the feelings are definitely there.