Keeping the dream alive

‘It’s Christmas time, there’s no need to be afraid’ Band Aid – Do they know it’s Christmas (feed the world)

After almost 6 weeks, things finally seem to be looking up for us. Yesterday Duncan was finally accepted on his computer course – after loads of hassles from the career development loan people over his visa. This means that hopefully, in a matter of months he will have left BT & will be doing something he actually wants to do. All we need now is for me to get the council job and we should be pretty much sorted. So much so that, assuming all goes to plan, we will be buying our own house sometime in the next 12-18 months. Woo hoo!!!!

I went to see James on Tuesday with Mary. I really didn’t want to go to be honest. All I wanted to do was curl up in bed & wait until everything seemed slightly better. I am, of course glad that I went though. The whole night was amazing – Tim Booth can certainly move! It was great to see them before Tim (the lead singer) left, although I wish they’d done some more recent stuff. I knew about a third of the songs – they did loads of very, very early (circa 1982) stuff which I didn’t know at all. But it was still great & the support band were, for once, good as well (Turin Brakes for anyone interested). I came home cold & tired but happy.

We didn’t do anything yesterday except laze around and watch loads of tv. Since we got the digital system installed we seem to listen to less and less of our own music. We either watch Kerrang or MTV2 or else just listen to the stuff we’ve downloaded instead. Makes me wonder now whether buying 100+ cds whilst being a student was a good investment after all! However, once we get a new car (hopefully with cd player this time) I’m sure we’ll be back to listening loads.

Today is job day again. Still no word from the council. I’m hoping that I’ll get the letter in the next 7 days maximum or we can safely say that it’s another rejection. Looks like temping or bar work (or both) beckon *shudders*. We also have our pub quiz night tonight as well. I don’t really feel in the mood for it at the moment, but that is more to do with the fact that I seem to end up annoyed with my friends by the end of the evening. Every week we think that this week maybe better, but I’m not holding my breath anymore to be honest. Do all friendships go through this? I suppose it’s made worse by the fact that we have a very small group of friends in Newcastle. Had I started dating someone else, outside the group, then it would have brought a whole new set, but, nevermind. Maybe working in the Newcastle area will help. It’s hard to form friendships with people you work with when you live 50 miles away and can never go out for drinks with them.

Until there is a next time…

xx