Is it fair?

I feel like I’m cheating. I’ve had very little appetite the last 5 days, and tons of energy to work out, so I lost 2 pounds in the last week. Of course, I’m painfully aware that it matches up exactly to when I started taking Adderall.

Not that I’m complaining, exactly. I know that one of the "side effects" of Adderall is decreased appetite and weight loss, and when the doctor mentioned that, I said "and that’s a problem?" So it’s to be expected, and of course I’m thrilled when I lose any weight.

It’s just that I’ve been trying like crazy to stick to my diet and workout plan for the last month and a half, and only managed to lose 6 pounds. And then I start taking a drug, and it gets easy. I know I should shut up and be thankful for it, but then there’s part of me that feels like it shouldn’t be easy.

I’ve been trying the last month or so to take a new attitude towards what I put in my body–that it’s pretty miraculous what God has given all of us, and I need to respect that by feeding it only healthy things, and exercising regularly. What does it say that I can just as easily take a pill that makes it all better?

I feel guilty celebrating any weight loss when I didn’t do it completely "on my own."

Well, I guess I did go and work out, so it’s not that the Adderall worked out for me. I’m still controlling what I do and what I eat, it just feels like it’s suddenly gotten a lot easier, and I hate that I can’t just make it be that way without the help of drugs.

I don’t know. Is it fair of me to celebrate weight that I only lost after I started taking it? Should I just shut up and be happy?