Update

I saw the oncologist. He wants to do something about the colon/bowels first. I asked about the spot on the chest X-ray and he says he is not worried about this because when I had the CAT scan, it was of the upper chest are as well as the bowels and there is noting in the chest according to that scan. I told him that I was willing to go along with this for a couple of weeks because, honestly, I agree that there is definitely SOMETHING  not normal in the bowel/colon area. I am horribly constipated. This is NOT normal. 

So, before I go to bed tonight, I have some this-will-clean-you-out stuff that was prescribed yesterday and that I picked up today. Then later in this coming week I have a meeting with yet ANOTHER doctor to schedule a colonoscopy. I have specifically requested hospitalization for the cleaning out bit since I not only do what is required of my body but tend to throw up as well. Anyway, all this will be sorted out with the new doctor. All I know is that at this time in my life I feel I not able to do this required stuff alone and no way would I ask my son {possibly my daughter if I had one but I don’t} to supervise this. Then the results go back to the oncologist and we meet to decide what to do next. And this, of course, depends what shows on the colonoscopy.

Oh, and I made it quite clear to the oncologist that I had no intention of ignoring what the chest X-rays showed. After all the colonoscapy stuff is dealt with, and no matter what it shows, then I need to have something done about this no matter what it is.

"Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." from the Sermon on the Mount in the Gospel of Matthew — Matthew 6:34

Try not to resist the changes that come your way. Instead let life live through you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?

– Jalaluddin Rumi

If not me, then who?

If not now, then when?