Tired

  • This apartment is not good for me. I have dropped right back into depression and lethargy and I keep losing things. I walked three times through the apartment looking for my Kindle before I found it in front of my computer where I had put it. I have also "lost" my cheese grater…
  • My modem and router don’t seem to be working. Well, they SAY they are connecting but nothing is happening. I am here because I am mooching off someone else’s unprotected connection.
  • I have a massage tomorrow. I really need it.
  • I am tired all the time although I seem to be sleeping more than I usually sleep.
  • I start things and get nothing finished.
  • I am eating and drinking lots of water and pooping and peeing but I don’t feel well. I am not in pain but my body feels bloated and unsettled. I have no energy.
  • I seem to be on the edge of crying all the time.
  • I am stressed by money problems and by not knowing what is going to happen. I don’t do well with loss of control in my life.
  • I have told my older son I am coming to see him in MS at Christmas. I don’t really want to and only partly because of the expense. He has expectations I don’t feel I can meet.
  • Today I was unhappy. Tomorrow is a new day.

Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary. The people we trust with that important talk can help us know that we are not alone. ~Fred Rogers (Mr. Rogers)

If I am not for myself, who will be for me? And when I am for myself, what am ‘I’? And if not now, when?

– Hillel

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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September 29, 2012

I’m sorry you’re feeling so down. I hope you feel better soon. Hugs!

September 29, 2012

Big hugs.

September 29, 2012
September 29, 2012

(((HUGS)))

*HUGS* and more *HUGS* I hope tomorrow is a better day.

September 29, 2012

RYN: Just one of the many reasons they hide behind their computers, cause I would find much joy in blocking their asses and silencing their stupidity 🙂

September 30, 2012

i’m so sorry for the way you are feeling. wish i could help you somehow feel better. all i can offer you is prayer. take care,

You are hard on yourself. Lower your expectations. Perhaps writing a letter to Fred will help, just to get it out of your system as you are holding onto past emotional pain it seems.

September 30, 2012

I completely understand your emotional state with all you have had to go through this year. It’s difficult to feel settled and totally happy when things are up in the air and undecided. I hope things settle down and you feel better soon. ((HUGS))

September 30, 2012

(((((((((huuuuuggggggsssssss)))))))) I am so sorry you’re feeling tired and waaaay down, my dear friend. I think that the apartment is bad for you right now, because even though you and Fred had plenty of great times there, the most recent times there were sad and trying. And that energy still remains in the house, and holds your personal energy down. Try letting in more light, opening the windows for more fresh air, and burning sage incense (to cleanse) and rose, if you like that scent, for replacing the “down” energy with more uplifting energy. Do you have any houseplants? Acquiring a new one or two will bring new green (heart) energy in. Is there music that especially makes you feel happy? Maybe playing that more often will help uplift your spirits too! Above all, be GOOD to yourself; rest as much as you feel a need to, don’t expect yourself to accomplish a lot of “work” right now, because the most important work you can do now is self-healing….and after suffering a big loss, that takes time. more hugs, Nicky

October 18, 2012

I am wondering about your social life. Do you have friends to get together with?