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E DIT: I called Fred a few minutes ago and he sounded very lively. He told me someone came to talk to him about what the MRI showed  and he was told that there was actually nothing there! Hmmm… Fred is very much a I-was-right-and-all-the-medical-people-were-wrong person so I don’t know. Anyway, he feels good about this so I guess it is a good thing. The best news, however is that he is going to be given a walker and encouraged to use it while he is there. I was astounded to hear him admit that HE has to do something about how his legs are now and that he wants to do it for us. I was almost in tears when he said that…

I slept for three hours, got up for one, slept for three more, woke briefly and looked at the clock and slept for three more hours!

I am still down-to-the-bone tired. I have decided I cannot face the huge hassle of parking at the hospital and walking miles to where Fred is — so today my visit will be by phone. He won’t mind. When I was last hospitalized, he could not face the stress of that place so called me every day and I was fine with it. If he isn’t fine with it, he isn’t the man I thought he was  And, hey, I AM concerned about his health but mine comes first. His daughters are here this weekend so he won’t be lonely…

When I looked at the kitchen this morning, I found a package of pumpkin-flavored coffee on the table. I don’t know if it is a gift or one of his daughters left it accidentally. I can take-or-leave flavored coffee and actually drink very little–one cup a day,– but I know Fred does like it so, for him, I hope it is a gift.

Over the course of the last two weeks or so, I have decided the three-year-old magazines piled up in random places will go. I have been respectful of Fred’s preferences to throw nothing out but the not-going-to-the-emergency-room episode of a few days ago {last entry} has opened my eyes to the fact that I have been deferring to all Fred’s preferences too long. I am not a fanatic about  getting rid of "stuff," but who reads three-year-old news magazines?  They are not randomly being just disposed of since Vermont has mandatory recycling, which I definitely approve of, BTW, so they are going into the recycling bin today. They are piled on the coffee table so he will notice when he gets home, but if he is annoyed by this, tough. I live here too and it is time MY needs are catered to a bit, too.

Can you believe that there is yet another update to ITunes? This is ridiculous! I came home last night to find this update info on the computer screen. It is time to un-check the "automatically update to latest version" button.

Time for coffee and then I will call Fred…

Creativity is inventing, experimenting, growing, taking risks,

breaking rules, making mistakes, and having fun.

— Mary Lou Cook

"We are taught you must blame your father, your sisters, your brothers, the school, the teachers – but never blame yourself. It’s never your fault. But it’s always your fault, because if you wanted to change you’re the one who has got to change." — Katherine Hepburn

You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes.

You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.

You’re on your own. And you know what you know.

You are the guy who’ll decide where to go. ~ Dr. Seuss