The Next Step
Today I have done very little. Mostly I have read and watched some TV and got up a lot to get water. This morning I was dizzy and short of breath. I knew at once it was my version of a panic attack–the kind that I started having when Fred was ill for a long while before he died. They are, to a large extent, symptoms of stress and I know exactly what is stressing me. I have a huge amount of stuff to do and only a week to do it when I go back to VT on Thursday.
In my original plan. I wasn’t going to move until February. I have slowly been getting rid of a lot of stuff mostly by offering it on Freecycle, but that won’t work now. I have to find a home for the big dining room table which is much to big for the dining area in my new apartment. I have pots and pans—far too many for one person– which I have sorted with the idea of giving them away on Freecycle, but there isn’t enough time to get rid of them that way now. Fortunately, I do not have to do it all alone. Fred’s daughter and her husband are coming to help over several days. I have already called Ernie and he has worked out what days and times he can come working around his work schedule. The bed is not going with me but it has to stay until the last day so I can have somewhere to sleep. Ernie has said he will dispose of it by taking it to the dump. The movers are coming on the 15th and 16th. I am flying back to NC on the 18th. {The way I feel right now about flying is that it will take an Act of God to get me on another plane!)
I am feeling physically much better than I did this morning because I have drunk a lot of water. Apparently when I let myself get dehydrated, I feel dizzy, and I have deliberately rested. And, I have also started making step-by-step plans for what needs to be done when I get back.
I can do this…
Fear not for the future, weep not for the past.
Percy Bysshe Shelley (1792-1822) English Poet
Be yourself. Everyone else is taken.
– Oscar Wilde
Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary. The people we trust with that important talk can help us know that we are not alone. ~Fred Rogers (Mr. Rogers}
I do not envy you the moving job and hope it goes well.
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Take care of yourself! My grandson ended up unconscious for 45 minutes yesterday due to severe dehydration. They had to pump him full of fluids! ((Hugs))
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is there a thrift store or some other type of shop that will pick up for free what you can’t get rid of? that’s what we did for the things that did not sale from the estate sale. All we had to do was make sure that it was boxed up, the rest the people just came and took them away—for free!
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YES!!!! You can and will do this…..and it will be OK. Bless your heart…I wish I was close enough to help you will all of it. BUT, it will get done. I admire you so for all you have done up to this point.
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Moving is stressful even when we’re young and able to cope with life’s little setbacks. I don’t know about you, but the older I get, the harder it is to handle things. Rely heavily on your “helpers” and it will be a lot easier. If all else fails, you can always just pack up the stuff that you don’t know what you want to do with and bring it back with you and deal with it later.
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If you call around, you’ll probably be able to get somebody (the Salvation army?) to come and collect your stuff from the apartment if you’re donating it. Or you could put it on Freecycle one more time but as an open ‘I’m moving! Come and take this stuff away on X day’ (huggles)
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How does Freecycle work? Here, if I put an ad up on Craiglist in the “for free” section, I immediately get about 30-50 emails, I put it out on my front porch and someone comes and gets it before the day is out. I understand the panic attacks. I’ve had panic and anxiety disorder for a long time. But for me, knowing what was happening, helped me to control it a lot. Usually taking slowdeep breaths helps me.
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I wish we lived closer as I would buy some of your things. After losing all of our things in the fire I’m sure a lot of what you’re getting rid of would be useful to us. Don’t worry, everything is going to work out just fine for you. Hugs,M
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yes, you can do it!! moving cross country is very stressful. a big move like this so soon after a major death in your life makes it all the more stressful. be good to yourself. prayers it all falls into place and the move is smooth and angst free. take care,
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You CAN do this! Is there a Big Brothers/Big sister’s type place that will come pick up the things you don’t want? Usually you just set them out on the porch and call them up, and they will come pick up the stuff you left. Or maybe a shelter type place? It would be worth looking into:)
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YES, YOU can do this!
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