Patrisha

March 1, 2007

Saturday

my mac book Ok, this entry will probably have Friday’s date because I was practicing last night on the Mac and actually managed to insert this picture using my VERY rusty HTML! I saved it as a private entry and am continuing with it this morning. I am not sure if I will be able to do insert a picture again. Also, can anyone who understands this stuff point me to an on-line page where I can find out how to put the photographs in the middle or at the right or the left? It will be good for me to have to relearn the bits of HTML I have forgotten! I also need to remember how to make a list, too, since I am so list-prone. It is true–use it or lose it! I can do bolding and italicizing with no problems at all since I use those tags un my titles every day!I have at least one more thing to do today besides homework. We had another couple of inches of snow yesterday. It is actually very light, fluffy pretty snow. Today it is supposed to get into the 40’s and already the snow is sliding off our cars which are parked in the sunshine. But since todays relative warmth is supposed to be followed by a couple of cold days, I need to get out and get what snow remains off the cars before I have to scrape ice to go to school on Tuesday!Last night it took me forever to fall asleep. I am not actually totally back in the cancer loop where every little pain is an indication of cancer, but I think I probably need to find out where the Ativan is….

I found this quote a couple of months ago and saved it in my quotes folder because it is so true.

"After many months, my doctor pronounced me “cured,” meaning that I could now take up a spooked, lifetime vigil against the disease’s return."

Jenny Allen on cancer

I am sure you have heard the old saying about traumatic illnesses. They are often referred to as "the elephant in the middle of the room." Everyone knows it is there and yet it is seldom talked about. It is tiptoed around but never confronted. Once you have had cancer, the "elephant in the room" never goes completely away. I used to joke to my sister that for me the cancer "elephant" had moved out of the middle of the room and was sitting outside on the balcony. {This, of course, was when we lived up stairs and had a balcony!}

When my sister was diagnosed with cancer, she could not talk to her husband about her fears because he so wanted the diagnosis to not be true. She used to send me emails with the subject "Elephant Thoughts" and I knew not to mention anything in the elephant letters when I emailed both of them. {She always printed out my emails and gave her husband a copy.} My private emails to her included the word "elephant" in the subject.

Now, because of the small chance that there MAY be cancer in this hip, my particular elephant is right back in the middle of every room I go into. Last night when I turned off the light for the first time, I could not sleep because of these thoughts.

The MRI is on the 26th of this month.
Ok, on with the day!

QUOTATIONS FOR THIS MONTH: "There is nothing good or bad but thinking makes it so."

Hamlet 2.2.255-256

“Every life form seems to strive to its maximum except human beings. How tall will a tree grow? As tall as it possibly can. Human beings, on the other hand, have been given the dignity of choice. You can choose to be all or you can choose to be less. Why not stretch up to the full measure of the challenge and see what all you can do?” Jim Rohn (motivational speaker/philosopher)

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Ci vedo dopo…. see you later…

erisreg

March 3, 2007

heres a simple guide to tags and such,. http://home.alphalink.com.au/~rhduncan/htmlguide/ if you don’t mind the titling google “idiots guide to HTML” and get really simple instructions,..o.o

I believe you are going to be prounounced healthy. *HUGS*

Ginger Rogers

I will pray that all is well with you.

Mezzo

One of the things I know about you is that you are a survivor. I can’t blame you for being worried. I would be too. But looking at what you’ve overcome so far, I’d say the odds are in your favor here. Have faith. I’m keeping you in my prayers, and I just KNOW that it will be ok. Love to you!!!!!!!!! ~M

That’s broadly true here also. There’s a twice monthly collection for most rubbish that can be recycled but it doesn’t include glass. Just tins, paper, plastic, card etc. 🙂

Pat

I also have a positive feeling about your prognosis. I know that it’s also natural to feel the way you do. Try to keep as busy as possible, which will help you in 2 ways: you will be too busy to dwell on the results and it will help tire you, so sleep will come easier. (((Hugs)))

lehper

Using () () with out the ()’s should center the photo. That’s what I use for mine. However I usually size them to just about fill the width of the page so it doesn’t really seem as if they are centered. Also the book “HTML 4 Dummies” is good. 🙂 – – – –

Oh well that didn’t work or should I say it worked too well! Use the around the word center works in HTML to center a photo or text and using /Center with the ‘s turns it off. 🙂 – – – –

I know that feeling. Although I have not had any cancer my crohns makes me much more likely to get colon cancer. I dread every colonoscopy I have. Yet, here I am , the one preaching to my MIL not to borrow worry. It’s only natural with what you have been through to be thinking these things. I really feel that your diagnosis will be something with a fairly simple remedy. Hugs, M

Mujer al Borde

I have so much sympathy for you. My elephant doesn’t really have a name yet, as far as I’m concerned; first it was “epilepsy,” now it’s “atypical migraines.” But there hasn’t been a definitive test result for anything… and I’m terrified it’s something life-threatening and as yet unnamed. I couldn’t sleep last night, either.

Violet

The 26th?! Well just think…you only have to “not think about it” for 23 more days. Geez. You would think they’d figure out a way to shorten your worry time. This website is a fantastic simple place to learn all kinds of HTML. This particular page is for images: http://www.lissaexplains.com/html3.shtml

I love you and your sister’s way of communicating about elephant thoughts. Roll on the 26th. I will be praying for you that it is not an elephant.

May Bright blessings attend you and all be well.

Lucky Lady

I am glad you are able to talk about the elephant here. I know you are currently tip toeing around because you don’t know for sure if the elephant is in the room or not. I pray it’s just an illusion & that you find out right away after the MRI. I’ve had surgery on a few cancer spots on my nose. One spot I’ve had cut 5 times, I know the fear. My prayers are with you my friend that it is just a scare.

LightButHearty

Crumb Patrisha…that is a lot to worry about.

TheWoodsprite

It must be hard for a person who cannot talk about her own illness because her spouse is too frightened of it to bear talking about it. But I think it’s not that uncommon for people to not be able to talk about such things with their loved ones. Probably you should take an ativan before letting yourself become too frazzled with worries. You need your rest, and that elephant will have to let you get it! ((((huuuuggggg)))) Weesprite

My mum says that you have to believe in your heart that you will get well. I have recovered faster than Art. I think because I kept self talking. I hope you don’t think that is nuts! I want you to get better and I’ll pray.

I’ll be praying for you.

MargUK

March 4, 2007

That’s a long time in worry terms! Will keep fingers crossed for you.