Pain

Last night I talked to Claudia on line. She is the only one who knows how I feel about my partner’s on-line friendship with Barbara. Well, that is not true. My partner knows how I feel about it…

Anyway, I have been very down lately and part of this is due to the fact that I have stopped exercising. So, I promised Claudia I would ride 5 miles on my bike today. I can do five miles easily. Before I fell into this depression-pit again, I was doing much more than that three times a week and I had tentative plans for a Woman’s Group tour…but not now. Anyway, the point of this is that I can’t ride because , dammit, it is raining. AND I woke up this morning with my back hurting again.

So, it seems that if I don’t take ibuprophen regularly and supplement it with Relafen when the pain gets bad, I am ALWAYS going to have back pain and chronic bursitis in my left hip? I am tired of this. I have actually thought that I don’t want to feel good, I just want to be pain free for a while..

I just want to be pain free. Not much to ask is it.