Moving Foreward*

So, here I am at 4:45 AM woken up by Jake’s  two "knuckleheads," ( the cats) and kept awake by all the stuff swirling in my brain! The cats realized that I had my light on at 3:30 AM and meowed and inserted their paws under the bedroom door to rattle it. When I got up to go to the bathroom, they first thought I was going to feed them but I was trying to get back to sleep and ignored them. However, my brain had a difference of opinion with my body and the brain won the argument so I stayed up, fed the cats, made myself a bagel and cream cheese and a cup of tea, so, here I am.

My brain is obsessing over all the stuff I have to do when I get back and the short time there is to do it. Of course, I will have help from Fred’s son-in-law who has already volunteered to help. I need to call him and tell him the schedule so he can fit me in around his job. I think I will do that this morning. He is going to get rid of the bed for me but I will need to sleep in it until the 18th, which is the day I am returning to NC for good. I think I am worrying about all this stuff because there is so much to do and in my original plans, I was planning to leave in February. But this amazingly suitable apartment dropped right into my lap, so to speak.

After a while, I began to feel sleepy so I went back to bed and slept soundly until 8 am, just in time to see Jake off to work. Since I have got up I have called the guy at the complex office to ask him about something {and embarrassingly called him Mark instead of Matt!) called the power company to get the power bill transferred to my name, and put a load of clothes in the washer and then into the drier where they are tumbling around now. It was a strange experience calling the electric company since they more many "press-this-button" choicesthan I have ever experienced before– once up to eight! I finally got to speak to a real person and got it all done. To my surprise, I had to find my SS number which, unlike my sons and Fred, I do not have memorized! There was a $17 connection fee but I didn’t have to pay a deposit since my credit is excellent.

Once I have finished here, I am going to call Fred’s son-in-law and tell him what my schedule will be once I get back.

 Fear not for the future, weep not for the past.

Percy Bysshe Shelley (1792-1822) English Poet

Be yourself. Everyone else is taken.

– Oscar Wilde

Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary. The people we trust with that important talk can help us know that we are not alone. ~Fred Rogers (Mr. Rogers}