Depression and Other Things

It has been a week since I wrote and I have spent a lot of it getting myself out of a depressive situation. I have gone through this depression stuff many times and when I lived in Vermont and with Fred, I had lots of coping skills. This time I was depressed a few days before I realized what was going on. The bottom line is that I am lonely. I have no close friends here at all.

But there are things I can do that help and one of them is exercise. So, I have taken the first steps to get some exercise. I cannot walk for any time at all that would make it worthwhile for me to do it. After 15 or 20 steps I am in pain. It is largely because my posture is appallingly bad and my back is telling me so. So, I am going to be swimming. I went to the apartment complex’s pool that is nearest to me {there are two} and made sure I knew how to get in. I have a couple of bathing suits coming but I am not going to wait for them to arrive before I go swimming. I have in the past done a lot of swimming in a T shirt and shorts and I can do that again. The other thing I have been doing, along with still organizing piles of "stuff" — is singing. Singing makes me happy, especially singing with which I can harmonize! I now  have a playlist on my IPod especially for singing!

Today I drove out to Morrisville to see my doctor for a check up. Now that I am Officially Old, apparently I need to be checked on more often. I am not sure I will continue to go along with this but at least for the next visit in three months time, I will humor her! I told her I had been depressed and that I knew what was the cause and that I had strategies that helped me. I mentioned my plans for swimming and the singing therapy but I forgot to tell her I got email from a local  art studio and in July {I think} they are holding a class on making art journals. Now, I know what art journals are, but I have never been able to see any use for me in them. I actually don’t know what I would  used one for, so it might be beneficial for me to take a three-hour class on this. I did talk to my doctor about my birthday coming up and how the day after is the first anniversary of Fred’s death.

Anyway, going back to the trip out there to the doctors, I figured it was about an hour’s trip so I gave myself an hour and a half because of the traffic on the Interstate {and the fact that driving on the Interstate makes me very nervous!} I was intending to sit in my car and read when I got there because I knew I would get there early. I drove into the Park area–lots of shops and businesses –and parked. I had forgotten to write down the number but I knew I was in the right area and not too far from it. I actually did much better than I thought because I turned around and saw I was parked right in front of the office! AND, I did not get one "recalculating" from the GPS! Then I found I had left my Kindle at home, so I walked over to Starbucks and got some coffee and did some people-watching instead of reading.

After I got home, UPS knocked at my door and delivered, among other things, some nice smelly candles I had ordered. I love smelly candles. The one I am burning now is Ginger Peach.