Bah! Humbug!
- I feel depressed. The depression is partially because of the steady rain, which, if I am to believe the forecast, will be with us for two more days at least.
- I feel stupid. I put the boxes out for recycling yesterday to be picked up today. Apparently, while landlord is unable to take the trash out to the street, the picker uppers will come and get it. But not my boxes. Because I did not break them down and flatten them. There was a message left on both piles –a stick-on in a harsh shade of ugly lime green stating this. I knew this, I think, but I have never been worried about it before because when landlord is here, he breaks them down for me. And why don’t I do it myself? Well, that would be because I am old and pathetic and I have arthritis in my hands.
- I feel angry. So, I am going to leave the damned boxes out there in the rain and I don’t give a damn that in the first high wind, they will be blown all over the yard. And, no, I am NOT going to bring them in and store them under the table…
- I want a new life. And a body that isn’t old and doesn’t hurt would be nice. But, y’know how I am feeling? I am feeling there is no way I will get anything I want.
Is the life I’m living the life that wants to live in me?
Parker Palmer
"I yam what I yam."
Popeye
I love a woman who says what she means and means what she says…..So, for today..”YOU GO GIRL”!!!
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Yikes! Time to get an industrial-grade SAD light! 🙂 Some days you just don’t want to get out of bed in the morning. Get feeling better soon!
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(((HUGS)))
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Many hugs. I know where you are at. Have you been sitting under/by the SADD light on rainy days?
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Want me to come whack ’em with my cane? Cuz I will. Hang in there honey. I asked Santa for a new body this past Christmas, but he ignored me. But a girl can dream. Loves to you! ~M
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We all know that you are not stupid. By a long shot! I agree about wanting a pain-free body. ::sigh:: But, thank goodness for ibuprofen and other pain medications.
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everyone knows you’re not stupid!! let your feelings out. you will most certainly feel better. hopefully, when the sun returns on saturday and sunday you will be feeling better. take care,
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I may be in my 30’s but I too wish I had a new body…a start over due to all my chronic pain and osteoarthyritis and stuff. Would be nice!
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A quick note to tell you I love you… and I really appreciate this entry a lot. 🙂 Sometimes owning how we’re feeling is the best option!
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It’ll pass. Things do. But never fast enough! And I’m with you on the boxes – I find it hard even in my fifties to break them up – one of my most hated jobs – they make these damn things really strong these days!
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I know how you feel. There are so many things that make an older person angry and frustrated! But I know you will soon snap back….and the heck with those boxes!
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Recycling is so much work. At least there is someone to pick it up for you. Here it is about all this washing, sorting, breaking up, loading into your car and sorting to get rid of it. I so want to recycle, I do it but it takes so much time.
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stuff like that is really frustrating. I’m sorry it’s rain rain raining there. We could really use some rain here. It is hot hot hot.
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