Laughter, love and life

Is “ego” the energy that powers the “will”?

Insane. Completely insane. That after spending 10 hours straight in front of a computer today – from 10:30a to 8:30p – that I would come BACK here tonight after seeing a movie.

Insane. Completely insane. That after two weeks of burning the candle on one end to soften the wax and put it on the other end, so I can burn that side – that after finishing the essential component of the video project (I still have a graphic to generate and slip into place) – that going to see Final Fantasy would somehow boost my ego til I feel I am on top of my proverbial ball of string.

Insane, that is, until I remember that God is in control anyway. Insane, that is, til I find a friend online who needs some help. Someone to talk to. Someone to talk sense to them.

But, even before I found my friend online, I was already thanking God for this wonderful feeling, and for getting the video done, and for so many other things.

It is a sign of a restoration of myself when I can do these things. When I can pause and stop and praise God. That in and of itself is praiseworthy.

Thank you all of you who have been praying for me and encouraging me in the notes. The brochure project was delivered to our office on Friday just minutes before I left at noon (we close at noon on fridays during the summer).

Its pretty darn kick-butt!

Its the sort of thing that I keep picking up and marveling at. It is impressive. I can barely believe I had a hand in it. Let alone designed it!!! *laughing*

I don’t know if other designers wrestle with this same problem as I do…. I am trained in visual communication. I am trained to be critical of it wherever I see it. Trained to be appreciative of it when I see good design. Every now and again, I find something that I see as excellent.

Sometimes, those pieces are mine – but thats not the point. I don’t look at it and say “Look what I did! It kicks butt!”… Instead, I look at it and say “Look at this kick-butt design?!!” then it hits me “I did this!?!”

Anyway, I didn’t get a butt-chewing. My boss WONT let me pay for it, so instead I am putting the money into a scholarship fund next year – without telling anyone (else). That will be my private penance.

The job was corrected, and it was delivered ahead of schedule (by half a day). Even my printer rep said “Hey, we did an excellent job on this! This looks great!!” *g*

Thanks all. Your prayers were answered, and I am feeling it now in this ego-boost as well.

I will prepare the graphic for the video Monday afternoon, and the video master will be downloaded Monday night. The duplicator will be working around his clock to produce product for delivery next weekend. But, it will be done.

As for myself. This next week will be spent in restoration, of both my person and my domicile. Then, I am going camping all next weekend. Even that – God made synchronious: I was supposed to go camping this weekend, and work video at church next weekend. Well, this morning, I was bummed that I wouldn’t get to go camping because I didn’t get the video done last night as I had planned.

Then, Terry called (my video projection counterpart) and asked if I’d cover for her this Sunday, as she and her husband had a wedding to tape both today and tomorrow afternoon.

Coolies! So we traded, and now she is doing next Sunday!! Way to go, God!

Well, I am doing nothing for recharging my physical health by staying up any later. Thank you all. Thank you Lord.