it gets loneliest at night

i finally got to read that book. and guess what? he’s just not that into me.

and that’s actually cool. because now i know. maybe i’ll try for a signed confession, but it has me feeling slightly less… psychotic. which can’t be a bad thing.

even though it bloody frigging hurts.

going home tomorrow to vote, and to visit my dad because he has to get a lump removed. for the fourth time. (sometimesigetreallyscaredforhim.)

i come home from studying to find flowers, and a note addressed to “the one who looks absolutely gorgeous in pink.”

… and that is why i love erica.

i promise, the next entry will deal with halloween fun. even if i wind up not posting until thanksgiving.

love you.

eucatastrophe.

October 31, 2004

(smile) i’d already read all that. i feel special.it would make it easier if just knew that he isn’t into me.maybe someday soon boys will learn not to tease like they do.laura

Eternal Supernova

okay…finally noticed what I was clicking on to leave you a note…kiss the bottle…hm…funny story…apparently tis what I look like when I drink things that come in bottles…eh. on the other note–tis better to know that to not know…even though it hurts like f*&^ing hell. I know, though in a different way than you do. *hug*

ImperfectlyBeautiful

i hope one day to find you talking to me on aim. ryn: you’re such an amazing person, i’d hate to see you wasting all that wishing you were the person i am. stay you, it’s more beautiful that way. jezsyka

I’m back! Haha anyways… Guys suck. As much as I tell myself not to bother… it’s so hard. It’s hard to decide sometimes with things like that if it is really actually better to know the truth, or to go one not knowing… anyway, I hope your dad is okay. I’m sure he will be. xx

oops, I forgot to sign in. xx nameless face;*

Uncertain Tragedy

November 1, 2004

its good to hear from you

((brilliant))

i’ve read this elsewhere… but yay for notes! 🙂