it feels like i’m stuck on stand by me

Start me up, baby, and I won’t be able to stop.

For some reason, I’ve been on this silly poetry kick for the past few days. While most of what I write is utter shit, I thought that this one is apropos considering the fact that I’m turning 21 tomorrow. Meanwhile, my maturity level is that of a girl who has barely graduated high school.

ode to a birthday

change me, birthday
21 is too old to feel like a child
playing dress-up.
it’s too old to sit at the kiddie table
and be scared of grownups.
and if you can’t make me older
then please send me back to kindergarten.
i’ll know to have fun this time around…

My friend Jim, the one person I know who is qualified to judge a poem, said he liked it. Silly boy. I know when someone is just being nice.

Southpaw018: any and all attempts at poetry are beautiful when they come from the heart. 🙂

Roughly translated from nicepersonspeak, that’s “It sucks, but I could never ever say that to your face. p.s. You’re pretty and I have a crush on you.”

Lovely notes, by the way. Sweep me off my feet why don’t you? (as a warning, don’t tell me that you like my crappy poems anymore. because then i start to think that, if i’m not good, at least i don’t suck. and i do suck. and i will write and post more poetry that sucks. so be mean! but still leave lots of notes.)

I have also recently discovered how snobby I can be when chosing whose diary to read and whose to carefully phase out. Perhaps sometime in the near future I can explain my criteria. Silly me, as though anyone cares.

I’ve been thinking of changing my diary handle. I think I need something unnecesarily dramatic. (ideas so far: paranoid asteroid, lipstick suicide (don’t ask me where i came up with that… i might have stolen it from you, so check.), and you kissed me, and i.o.u. one galaxy.)

I’m in an odd mood at the moment. Ignore the poor writing/excessive unimportance in this entry– I only didn’t want it to be another just-poetry entry. My poetry is the type of thing one wants to forget as soon as one reads it. Hence, the excessive information and use of the word “silly“.