and never know i’m there

……………..

last week you asked me how school was going. i said fine, and that i thought i understood a lot of the concepts. i lied, but you believed me.

this weekend you took me to a party. you got drunk and danced on a table and went home with a cute boy. i went home and counted sleeping pills until sunrise. you asked me what i did after i went home, and i said i slept. you didn’t know it was after taking five pills and passing out.

last night i sat through a meeting, and smiled and said all the right things. and no one saw through it. i cried for an hour inside my car before driving home. when i got back you asked why my eyes were red and i said it was an eyelash.

this morning you asked me how my night was. i said fine, although i’d spent the night staring at the cracks in my ceiling. you told me i looked tired and to go to bed earlier.

something is seriously wrong with me.

Wow. I hope things get better for you- doesn’t sound like too much of a party over there. <333

find someone you can be honest with. just talking makes it better sometimes. xoxo, Megan

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lennon.

January 26, 2004

never feel like you have to.line up.your rest in tinycapsules that can make everythingfade becauseohhoney it all looks so muchbetter in colour.i love you.

depth of my emotions

I want you to be okay, dear. Is there anything I (we) can do?

this is your song

ah, feel better my love.ryn//thanks. i’m feeling better. <3katie

perfect//ensemble

as i have come to realize, we can decide whether or not we want to feel bad or sorry for ourselves. just get outside and smell a rose, look at the sky. just sit in the grass for a couple hours and let everything go. just find yourself again and do something you really like. watch your favorite movie. listen to your favorite song. talk to a favorite person.feel better. <33

ImperfectlyBeautiful

I remember smiling when I was supposed to smile, laughing when I was appointed to laugh…and trying to make something of nothing when all I really wanted to do was bury myself in the comfort of anything.anyone. breathe… Jezsyka

cinderella crashed.

January 27, 2004

nothing is wrong with you. sometimes it seems easier to lie than to expose yourself. take care hun xoxoxo.<3 caitlyn

Eternal Supernova

*hug* Darling…I know how you feel. And I wish I could say that I could make it better, and I would if I could…but I can’t. Other than give you my internet hugs and tell you that I love you.

meegarnet

January 30, 2004

if there is something wrong…I hope you feel better. But I doubt it thanks =)

A.ll o.ut of l.ove

February 1, 2004

i dont think anything is wrong with you baby doll. I think your amazing. I think everyone pretends a little bit, but maybe you need to talk about some of the things… stop hiding them, and lying about it. Nothing will get better if you keep doin that. Youve always gave me such great advice and im sorry that i dont have anything to say. but im always here. no matter what.

sugar*kiss

everyone else kind of already said all the things i want to say but i’ll say something anyway: nothing is wrong with you. i know it is so cliche but we are all made uniquely and our individuality is what makes us beautiful. there are times in life when nothing makes sense and no one can explain that but all it does is let you hope for when things get better. and they will. i promise they will. xo