The End Part 3 – Unimportant Remnants

Things happen and you move on.  Thinking you could understand fully anything that happens to you is naive.  You learn from them and try to be true to yourself when the next thing happens.  That’s all you can do.

It’s all choices I suppose.  You choose to make the effort or not, choose to move on, choose to leave doors open or close them…all choices.  I dunno.  I dont’ know anything anymore. I guess I’ll leave you alone now.  Sometimes I just need to rant, especially when I"m trying to make sense of something.

You’ll drive yourself crazy trying to make sense of the world.

Not of the world, of people.  And I do drive myself crazy. I’ve been crazy for the past week trying to make sense of you, trying to figure out what you wanted.

Maybe there’s a lesson in that.

<span style="color:

rgb(204, 153, 255);”>I can find meaning in anything if I look hard enough, doesnt’ mean it’s really there or worthwhile =P

Point taken.

Sorry again.  Thanks for hearing me out at least.  I’m not good at keeping things bottled up.

Nor should you be.

And I left it here…didn’t know what else to say.

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October 23, 2011

Why do fundamentally simple things always end up so complicated? I’ve often pondered this, and have no answer for it, but we ourselves are surely responsible for the majority of these complications. I don’t think your “games” have amounted to anything more sinister than showing him that you are completely crazy about him.

October 23, 2011

If he still isn’t responding to that, he either doesn’t feel the same, or is more guarded and complicated (or stubborn) than you will ever be. It’s seems he will cling to his story for dear life, but it remains to be seen how long you will cling to your obsession with him…

October 23, 2011

Sucks though… why more people can’t find value in the context of each other. Actually, my sister feels the same way about a guy right now, but he just wants to be friends. She feels like he is her soulmate (couldn’t think of a better term!), and she has real trouble being with him when she feels that way, though he has offered her life-long friendship and she is managing with that somehow.

October 27, 2011

Sorry for what you’re going through. Urgh.