Love is Evol

I’m here.  For some reason, chugging 3 beers and listening to angry Eminem songs the other night brought me out a bit.  Everything Ive ever read about depression has told me that alcohol is the worst thing for depression but…in this instance it helped.  Unless it was just a swing…it’s the only thing I did differently.

For those that think "boy troubles" are the source of this, I assure you, they are only a minor aspect.  However, it does occupy much of my thought time.

"I’ve got a hole in my heart from some kind of emotional roller coaster…It’s like an explosion every time I hold you, wasn’t joking when I told ya you take my breath away.  You’re a supernova. I’d do whatever it takes. When I’m with you I get the shakes.  My body aches. When I ain’t with you I have zero strength.  There’s no limit on how far I would go, no boundaries, no lengths… I’m a space bound rocket ship and your heart’s the moon and I’m aiming right at you."  – Eminem

That’s what I felt.  Regardless of whether I had reason to or not.  That’s the type of emotion I’m capable of, but I can’t control who I feel it for, unfortunately.