Could Use Some Psychological Advice
I think I need to look into some sort of mental therapy. Im not dealing with aging very well. It wouldn’t be so bad if I wasn’t alone. It would be manageable, but everything I see, all the changes in my body, my face, convinces me that I’ll never be able to find anyone to be with because I’m so certain that I’ll be cheated on or left because I’m not pretty enough or because I have wrinkles or whatever other crap pops in my head. I guess that’s what happens when you are told your whole life that you are beautiful and then every guy you form a relationship with leaves you for someone that’s not. It makes you think that looks are all you have. When you start to lose them, psh…you’re fucked I guess.
I notice tiny things that just cripple me and make me burst into tears and I know there has to be some way around it, some way of reforging my mind, making it develop alternate thought patterns so that I don’t end up sobbing on the floor trying to figure out the least painful way to kill myself without fucking it up and ending up in a mental hospital. I don’t know where to start. I don’t know if I’d even be able to afford it. I’m good at research, though, if I knew what to start reading, what type of therapy I would need. Behavioral, Cognitive? I don’t know. I don’t know what’s the best for what’s wrong with me or who to talk to, but I’m losing my mind and if I don’t change my brain, it’s going to kill me one day.
I’m afraid you’re having those natural feelings about being 29 and knowing 30 is coming. It’s not so bad once you hit 30. It’s natural though, I wanted you to know that it’s something we all go through
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Sounds like you just have low self esteem/self confidence. You don’t need a therapist to help you, you just gotta change your way of thinking. Instead of focusing on a negative aspect of yourself (a lonely wrinkle) try and remember you have good qualities – positive thinking. If you keep in your mind that everyone has good and bad qualities, including yourself, you will begin to present your positives better. Accentuate your strengths and accept your weaknesses. I’m not funny, but I’m artistic. I’m not savvy, but I am creative. I’m not an athlete, but I am a musician. That type of thing.
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The noter who said “you don’t need a therapist to help you” is misguided. Therapy can help you, and I encourage you to seek one out. We can’t all figure out everything on our own all the time. Sometimes we need help. Therapy will help you on your journey to strengthening who you are and figuring yourself out. Unfortunately our society is youth-obsessed and beauty-obsessed. I know that aswomen, sometimes we are taught that our worth is based on how attractive men think we are. But it’s not, and it took me a long time to figure this out. You are intelligent. You are beautiful. You are a good person. And you know that you can have a fulfilling, wonderful life. Sometimes it’s best that we are single for awhile and really think about ourselves when we need to re-evaluate who we are and what we want out of life. Anyway, getting help from a therapist will help. 🙂 And you can always write in this diary and hopefully one of us will be able to encourage you and give you advice. <3 take care.
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Between 26 and 32 are when women tend to be the most attractive.
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Can you really not see your own beauty? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=effqUH4Alio&feature=related You reminded me of this, from 2:30 to the end.
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I think you would benefit from counseling.
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Maybe it’s my mood making me cranky…but seriously? Notes like this —> “I think you would benefit from counseling.” Really? Cuz last I checked, that was the whole point of this entry. If you’re going to leave a comment, at least read the damn thing you’re commenting on. I KNOW I’d benefit from it. That’s why I’m asking for types to look into.
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I personally have had two therapists. One primarly used CBT (Cognitive behavioral therapy). That guy was completely unsuccessful at doing anything for me. My mood temporarily elevated and I ended up basically deflecting everything he said. Then he said not to come back because I was fine. Two weeks later I fell back into my own ways and he couldn’t help me. My second therapist uses more spiritual techniques. We analyze dreams and do sand trays and work on more abstract concepts. My second therapist got to me and is helping me out a lot more. I personally wouldn’t go with CBT. Also, I would make sure that you really mesh well with your therapist in the first session. If you don’t feel it, try another one. If you feel you are suffering from major depression, I advise finding a psychiatrist to perscribe meds as well. I don’t see clinical depression in your entires though. Good luck.
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