Changing

I think something in me has been deeply changed.  I can never trust my emotions…just look at the entries from the past few months to see why.  And now I find myself far, far away from that place, looking forward, hoping, but so afraid that I’ll wind up right back where I was.  

I have no faith in the longevity of human emotion anymore.  I know how I am, but I’ve had it proven time and again how other people are NOT.  And I need someone, regardless of whether it’s seen as weak or not.  None of the talents or attractions I have are wroth anything to me with no one to appreciate them.  I’ve never been interested in flings and I’ve never done the whole "casual dating" thing.  I get attached so easily.  It’s completely illogical.