this is what i need

i want somebody who sees the pointlessness

and still keeps their purpose in mind

i want somebody who has a tortured soul

some of the time

i want somebody who will either put out for me

or put me out of misery

or maybe just put it all to words

and make me go, you know

i never heard it put that way

make me say, what did you just say?

i want somebody who can hold my interest

hold it and never let it fall

someone who can flatten me with a kiss

that hits like a fist

or a sentence, that stops me like a brick wall

if you hear me talking

listen to what i’m not saying…
Ani Difranco

I need a boy. No I need a man. I need a man whos willing to cease to exist with me in raindrops and kisses in rain and the falling horizon and the infinite beauty.

I need him to see past the imperfections. To see the perfection in the imperfections.

I need fingers trailing my hair, because hes not scared to let me fall into him. I need words words words that are beyond our tongues and pens. I would like to sit in the middle of the room, in an ocean of papers and books and indian style, with big exotic colorful mugs filled with wine. And discussing what is life life life? And stoping for moments to just gaze in eyes. And. Maybe we’ll go swimming in that ocean.

I need lips that are not tricky. I need lips that speak only the truth. A magical spell. They are incapable of forming lies. They are mastered in sweet truths. And please. Yes. Please paste them on me.

I need breathes. Heavy breathes. In my ear and my neck. And just. Lets breathe a storm into each other

And you know what i wouldnt mind? running. Lets run. Lets run till we think our legs will give out, but we’ll keep running because there is the moon and the stars and even if we aim for the moon and dont make it, we’ll still be among the stars. Lets run with holding hands.

I need a man who will make my mother feel safe that I am in good hands. Lets see those hands. Are they strong? Are they weak? Because weakness is not bad. It is human. And I need human. I dont need superman.

I dont need to be saved. I dont need to be rescued from a tree.

I need something.

Something.

Much more.

And maybe.

I am asking too much.