do(nt) want

I dont want this:
i’d love my dirty russian girl to drop to her knees and suck me and then let me eat her out til she came”
And I dont want this:
“to look into your eyes while you sucked me. i’d love to cum for you elina”

I do want the hug that came in my dreams, while my eyes were closed and it felt so real, it was squishy and warm and i felt like i was home. Do you know what home feels like? Home was inside those arms. I want that hug when my eyes are open, and touches are imprinted on my clothes and home isnt taken away with the opening of the eye lids

At the end of it all though.

I guess I am just a hole and boobs.

At the end of it all. That home is very far from reality

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December 26, 2006

ugh.:angry:<3

December 26, 2006

*hugs* I can’t seem to find any appropriate words at the moment. Just know I’m here. Much Love, Katie

My new piece of music….. I can’t remember what it was that day. I think it was… uh crap I can’t remember, I’ll get back to you once all my music’s transferred. The first game that night was a play money game, and I sufficiently throttled everyone where they wanted to play for real money. Mistake for them.

Sex is fun, but love is better.

RYN: Well, that’s what I meant (re: sex). It can also be just pure fun if you’re of the mentality and can put yourself into a situation where you acknowledge it’s just a one-night thing or friends w/benefits. Although that still requires that the “friends” part doesn’t just include the “benefits” part. *shrug*

January 6, 2007

i’m really really angry right now. i had to skip this entry because i didn’t know how to respond and now i’m coming back to it and i’m just mad. how could anybody say something like that to you? that’s horrible. you will rise above this. you are not just a hole and boobs. you have so many other qualities: grace, enthusiasm, heart, determination, brains (built for neuroscience research!), and a thousand other wonderful things. so don’t let some jerk pull you down like that. i’m sending you lots of love. and hopefully 2007 can leave this all behind.