i hate my life

god today sucks ass.  my rat benji is sick as hell.  he has pneumonia.  he’s really cold and can barely move.  i’ve been holding him every chance i could today and feeding him with an eye dropper.  we’re about to leave to dinner w/a bunch of ppl for my mom’s b/f’s bday.  i think i should stay here w/benj but my mum wants me 2 go with.  i really hope he doesn’t die but i think he prolly will.  when i picked him out at the pet store he looked like he was a fighter…he was beating up all the other rats.  it was  cute and i knew that he was the one i wanted.  i love him soooooooo much ;[  i hope he pulls through and gets better…