Trying to do everything

Get my mind in order but that’s vary hard.  I gave in and smoked today and I’m ashamed. I’m trying to quit again. I got a new vape from staff. It tastes vary good. The other staff I don’t like  at all. I can’t talk to her during her shift so I stay in my room. I felt like she made fun of me yesterday, but I’m used to it. Good news I get to keep my room all to myself.  So happy about that. There is so much I have to do to figure out my life. To figure out what I want in life.