Sigh again

I’m out of cigs and it’s hard to quit.. I have the patch on and I’m allowed to smoke. My dad is being an asshole. That’s nothing new. I’m so happy that I get to keep 2 journal’s. An online one and a paper one. I dont know if im doing the paper one right. I’m just writing what I want. Putting what I want in there.  I have taped 2 of my vapes in there some Pokemon cards. A used amazon gift card. I dont know if I’m doing something right.