Thots

eye see the kingdom  as like this great shining beacon in the western night… calling all sorts of strange & lonely insects to its inviting flame… and they hope to merge with it… to blend with the light… to burn in its beauty… to dissolve into one giant mass of a flickering dance… to become one with the heat of this hungry place…

but not me… no… i came here to destroy… i came to put out the light… to become the shining one…

i don’t write for fame or money… i write to secure my position as the dominant creature in my species… to challenge my way to the summit… to become the alpha beast of my pack… to absorb the violence given to me… and to cultivate something magical from it… like an exorcism of my own personal Legion… every single waking hour… we seek to create something from our own destruction… these are not new ideas… new philosophies… quite the contrary… these are the most ancient of all ideas… these are the echoes of primordial chaos…

other generations have had similar visions… the artists of the 1920’s and the 1960’s were hungry for change… but unlike the 60’s… where i believe a large part of the counter culture was trying to build and support a framework of understanding and peace… we want warfare… spiritual warfare… cultural warfare…

we’re here to challenge everything…

we want answers… real answers…… we want justice… poetic mutiny… philosophical uprisings… this is an indwelling of our own device… we’re naming our own souls…

this is mass destruction… happening inside a single living host… each person is a plague… unique to itself… dying and resurrecting at different times… so the war is no longer a revolution… but now a movement… because it keeps going forward… it keeps growing… effortlessly outward… each member is a platoon all its own… every one a weapon…

this is the power of our collective…
our secret society… disciples of all things forbidden…. a nation of hungry sponges soaking up the world they way we want to… we are shadow soldiers… worshipping the empire of Night…

and if u don’t like it…
u can try to stop us… heh.

but with no real predators here…
the greatest danger we face
is from our own kind…

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March 27, 2004

I like those last three lines in particular.

Well well well…I knew I could find you here…(Guess Who!!) Ill leave a few more notes and leave you guessing a bit 🙂