Heavily chemically dosed

Oh God, thank you and praise you for everything. God I’ve been struggling all day. I’ve just realized, I think it’s been because I have not been keeping my eyes 👀 on you. I think you talked me down from buying a 🗡️ to protect myself….. and then u talked me out of buying a baseball bat. I’m not worthy, but u can make anyone worthy. I am…or have been Very Angry about this. I tried to call salvation army to try to find a safe place to sleep. I don’t think there open on the weekends. The last three days have been brutal. I can’t do this anymore. I need to find a safe place to sleep. I need scripture or scriptures to help me keep my eyes on u, and not my problem. I might start with I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, instead of anything else. What’s the solution. Please help me stay sane and not be a bad example. Oh help me not loose it.!!!!!!!! SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!! How am I supposed to sleep, and live??!!??