voice in my head. hmmm

dear me,

you need to stop overanalyzing every breath each of you takes.  in fact, breathe.  take a deep one.  stretch out on the floor and feel your weight against the ground. 

my strongest advice:  stop keeping track.  don’t figure out who’s turn it is to say ‘i love you’ first.  don’t count how many text messages you sent that went unreplied.  just keep breathing and stretching and let your life happen.  you get so lost in the calculations that you forget to enjoy yourself, especially with him.

i can tell that you’re wondering if he tallies these things up too.  i have a feeling he does, but probably not as much or as often as you do.  you need to stop letting the quality of your day be determined by these numbers.  stop asking yourself, "how many hours did we spend together this week?  and how many of them were spent talking?  watching tv?  having sex?"  to a degree you’re right, it matters.  but you’re letting it consume you.  your insecurities are getting the best of you and we both know that it’s a sign that you are losing your trust in him, and once you stop trusting someone you need to kiss them goodbye and move on. 

doubt is the monster that is keeping you awake at night.  it feeds on itself and multiplies.   so these thoughts, unfounded and suspicious, are going to destroy your relationship if you let them fester.  i’m not telling you to throw caution to the wind, but you don’t have any good reason to be like this.  so stop.  relax and enjoy the time you have together.

as to the other issues going on with you right now, i’ll have to save them for another letter.

yours truly,

me.