elephants

tonight i can’t scream loud enough, the silence is oppressive.
i’m just trying to make this home, but it fades, saying
you may not belong here after all.
so here, stuck
in this un-home
in this body that won’t mold
feeling weak,
like an animal in a cage.

don’t you know that that a smile won’t fix this,
even one as beautiful as yours?
please give me you,
in little pieces.
no, a smile just won’t do, i need your
intentions in my locket,
i need your eyes staring into me,
i needed your phone call so much earlier,
but now,
     this
          has
                got
                      to
                           stop.