closer

we drink ourselves
into soft oblivion.

and i go visit him
with my heart pounding,
things are changing so fast
and i am a blue mess
of arms, legs, breasts, thighs, eyelashes
you need to see me to understand,
you need to touch me in the dark
to put two and two together.

time goes slow, but nothing sticks to you
when you slide through life
greased with every word in the dictionary.

and i just wanted you to know
that i am not getting away.
i am only trying to get closer.
closer, i need you close to me
without the fresh hope of these things,
i will wither.
without you close to me again.