Prayer

Today is my day off. I woke up in a decent mood, but being around Him, it quickly tanked. My heart and mind have taken such a beating since our marriage began. What was I thinking marrying this man?

I am so disappointed in everything. Nothing has panned out like I thought it would. I find myself trapped in this cycle of emotional abuse. I hate to say the word “abuse”. I don’t want to be viewed as a victim, but I remind myself that what is happening is absolutely abuse.

I sometimes feel like I’m just lost in this new reality. Nothing will ever change. He will never love me the way I should be loved.

I have started praying again. Maybe a month or two of it. I pray things improve. God please.. let it improve.