what i’m looking for is a feeling

i’m flying to new zealand in ten days. i leave sunday, november 9th, 2008 and arrive on tuesday, november 11th, 2008. i’m never going to experience monday, novemeber 10th, 2008 because of all the wonky time zone shifting. i wonder what my monday, november 10th, 2008 would have brought to me had i no plans to go to new zealand and skip it.

i don’t have anything specific in mind for which town i’m going to decide to live in. it’s not that i require ocean or mountain or meadow or 4.3 coffeeshops or any other sort of criteria. i just want to feel like it’s the right place. and when i’m looking for a job, i want it to feel like the right one.

suws felt right. everything shuffled into place so wonderfully. i’ve felt like i’m doing the right thing for the past year, and now it feels right to go to new zealand.

i’m certainly not going to be amassing large amounts of money any time soon. isn’t that what i should be doing?

should:
past of shall
it means you ought to. or else.

i’m going to find out what else is.

and hopefully else is a feeling. just the right one.

i am dying my hair pink and purple and yellow and orange before i go. maybe not the wisest idea. maybe i shouldn’t, but i shall anyways.

<3clea