Waste of Time?
I have never missed my college friends more than I have today. I actually had somebody who I thought was my friend, tell me today that it was a waste of time to invite me to do anything. I am a fucking waste of time! I am good for her to whine over, but not good enough to do anything with. I have noticed this over and over with any friends I have tried to make since college. I am great for driving people around & expected to keep everybody’s secrets, but I have nobody to tell my secrets to, I don’t trust any of them to keep my secrets, which I guess should have been indication enough. The next hint should have been when they ditched me for my birthday and then again for the C&C walk. The one who had the nerve to say that I am a waste of time to invite, is the same one who wanted me, on my birthday, to go to bars in another town where I would have had to drive us, and I would have had to stay sober to drive home, because she didn’t want to drink in town where I could walk home. Also, all the stuff she has invited me to involves getting drunk, with a bunch of underagers (she is 30 something), or they are sex toy parties which I have no interest in. I am not a big sexual person, and I do not flaunt that stuff.
I am tired. I am tired of trying to make friends. I want my friends back. I have only ever made one real group of friends in my life. People who liked me for who I am, not who they thought I should be. Maybe we all clicked so well because we were the misfits. Land of misfit toys, right guys? I love you, you were the best people to ever walk into my life, and I am so much better for knowing you. And I thank you because if I hadn’t made true friends like you I wouldn’t be able to realize that I am just being used, again.
Grrr….I am tired of crying over a bunch of people not worth my time.
I’m so sorry someone actually told you that! It’s so unbelievably untrue! You’re a wonderful person. Honestly, I find the people who do nothing but talk about sex (or have sex parties) and drink to be the people who are a waste of time. I know you have so much more to offer in a friendship than just being a drinking buddy. They’re the ones that need to grow up and realize what they’re missing.*hug
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Sorry that you had that experience. It does sound like this girl should probably be more of an acquaintance than a friend. I have also not had much finding good friends since college. Some acquaintances, but nothing more. I’ve been lucky in being reasonably close to a high school friend, but I understand what you mean. Us misfits need to stick together…
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Misfits are the best 🙂 It does seem harder to find good friends the older we get huh. It’s interesting that maturity doesn’t seem to go up much either.
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