Waitin for the end of time

Hey hey everyone! What a great life isn’t it! I love it, and I love Nate. I went and hung out with him yesterday! It was great just to be with him. He got in the truck…Leah drove…and when he got in the 1st thing he did BEFORE he sat down was give me a kiss! We went to the mall and stuff and walked around. I don’t know something was different when other people are around us. But anyways, it was awkward. He didn’t hold my hand or nothing. But we stopped at this necklace booth thinger and he leaned against me! But we were walkin and he said that he wasn’t in a good mood and I asked why. You wanna know what he told me…hes like “I didn’t get to have my alcohol last night!!” Cause he went with me, and then my mom called like a half hour or so after I went and got him and I had to take him back home. That made me feel so bad…but then he said he was kiddin cause he saw the look on my face, and he told the truth. He said that his sister snapped at him 3 times that day. So he wasn’t himself and neither was I. Anyways, we left the mall and we went and drove Nate home. On the way there Leah brought up smoking pot! Nate hesitated, but he said something and I couldn’t make it out. I was so MAD! I wanted to jump out of the truck and walk him. No one talked to the rest of the time, till Nate got home. Then we were on our way to Janes house and Nate ran out the door and said that Jane CALLED him! We ended up goin over there, and Nate came over too. He didn’t stay cause she said something to Leah about him. I wish I went with him! I didn’t want to be there! But anyways, I got home and he called at 8. We talked and he told me that he wasn’t gonna talk to anyone that talked to Jane. And he said if Leah was gonna be friends with her then Leah can forget being friends with Nate! He hates her with a passion! And so, I don’t wanna jeopardize anything, I am not going to talk to her or anything! I love Nate to death. Then we hung up at 830, and he told me to call back at 915. I did and we were talkin about getting back together and stuff. I told him what Matt…Janes brother thinger…asked her. He asked her if Nate and I were together. And I was like “whats it to them?!” Nate agreed. We also agreed that when we see each other its just going to him and I cause it just doesn’t feel right with other people…if ya know what im sayin. Then we were talkin about if we were going to start fresh or pick up from where we left off at 5 months. I asked him what he wanted and he said it was my decision. I was like OH NO, it has to be a mutual thing, not all me! He said that he wanted to pick up where we left off, and so don’t I. And hes like, “technically you and I never really broke up.” I was like yeah I know. The only thing that we lost was the title boyfriend/girlfriend. He said “Yeah, but I am not givin you the title YET!!” So as of right now, we are seeing each other! I am so happy. I cant wait till this school year is ALL over cause then I am moving with him and well be together all the time. Wont that be great! He wants me to come and see him before I leave Friday. I am going to NJ Saturday, and I wont be back till Thursday. I am going to see if I can get the car so I can go see him. I hope I can! I don’t want to go a whole week or so without seeing him. Ill go crazy. I have to go pretty much a whole week without talkin to him. He told me to call him Thursday, and if he wanted to talk to me between then HEd call me! GrRrRrR! Its alright though. Im just so happy. Now all I have to do is get my mom to like him again. I am thinking of writing her a letter and leaving it for her and have her read it, and let her think about what was said, and well talk when I get back from NJ. I want her to so bad like him again. He is my soul mate, the one that I am suppose to be with for the rest of my life. This year is just gonna blow her away, cause at the end of the school year him and I are getting an appt. together, and what is she going to say then? I am still going to go to college, but Ill also be with Nate!

Well I am gonna go cause I wanna go swimming at Leahs, and I have to get the lyrics for the song of the day! PLCG!

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“Summer Wind Was Always Our Song”

By: The Ataris</center

These break-up songs make sense again

And i really wish they didn’t.

Sinatra’s singing summer wind

And i’m thinking of the night we met.

Just one last time

Can i hear you say?

“You’re my little boy

I never want you to go away”

Where are you?

Please believe in me.

I’m not hanging up the phone

’til i hear you say,

“I love you.

I need you near.”

Just give me one last chance

And i’ll never let you down again.

Oh and what i wouldn’t give

Just to kiss your lips again

To hold your hand next to my heart

And wake up with you in our apartment.

Just one last time

Can i call you my sweetheart?

My best friend

Why do all good things come to an end.

Where are you?

Please believe in me.

I’m not hanging up the phone

’til i hear you say,

“I love you.

I need you near.”

Just give me one last chance

And i’ll never let you down again.