Things that get talked about

So I talked to Gordon today….it is always an interesting conversation when we talk. So here it is…

*****Sexually Explicit Stuff Below – PLEASE DON’T JUDGE ME!!*****

*Miss-A* (4:12:39 PM): hey stranger
Gordon (4:12:48 PM): hi amanda
*Miss-A* (4:12:57 PM): how the hell are you?
Gordon (4:13:06 PM): alright you?
*Miss-A* (4:13:14 PM): pretty good
Gordon (4:13:34 PM): hows school
*Miss-A* (4:13:44 PM): great
Gordon (4:13:58 PM): whats you larning
*Miss-A* (4:14:10 PM): about hotel and resort management
Gordon (4:14:23 PM): oh?
*Miss-A* (4:15:00 PM): mmhmm….much better than what i was there for
Gordon (4:15:51 PM): i see
*Miss-A* (4:16:04 PM): yeah….how are you and steph?
Gordon (4:16:39 PM): great
*Miss-A* (4:16:47 PM): awesome!!
Gordon (4:17:31 PM): i know i am liking it
*Miss-A* (4:17:52 PM): awesome….u still at the casino?
Gordon (4:18:05 PM): yup
*Miss-A* (4:18:11 PM): fun fun
*Miss-A* (4:18:17 PM): im at Tanning Bed in Newark
Gordon (4:18:31 PM): like it?
*Miss-A* (4:18:43 PM): yeah when i get called in
Gordon (4:19:02 PM): part time on call huh?
*Miss-A* (4:19:11 PM): at the moment, until mid-february
Gordon (4:19:23 PM): brb
*Miss-A* (4:19:24 PM): ok
Gordon (4:21:39 PM): back
*Miss-A* (4:21:45 PM): ok
Gordon (4:22:15 PM): yeah
*Miss-A* (4:22:38 PM): so what has you so joyious on this wintery day?
Gordon (4:23:47 PM): other than i got a good thing going even thou i may be broke most of the time
*Miss-A* (4:24:18 PM): beautiful
Gordon (4:25:01 PM): yeah
Gordon (4:29:01 PM): hows you love life?
*Miss-A* (4:29:13 PM): good
*Miss-A* (4:29:15 PM): as it can be
Gordon (4:29:48 PM): seein any one
Gordon (4:29:51 PM): ?
*Miss-A* (4:30:01 PM): nope
*Miss-A* (4:30:17 PM): none other than pete….but its hard to see him since he isnt here
Gordon (4:30:36 PM): true
*Miss-A* (4:30:57 PM): im a faithful girl
Gordon (4:31:02 PM): lol
*Miss-A* (4:31:09 PM): what
Gordon (4:31:16 PM): nothing
*Miss-A* (4:31:18 PM): shut up
Gordon (4:31:55 PM): what?
*Miss-A* (4:31:57 PM): nothing
Gordon (4:32:27 PM): were you thinkin what i was just now thiking
*Miss-A* (4:32:39 PM): possibly
Gordon (4:33:20 PM): hmmm
Gordon (4:34:12 PM): was it a good or bad though?
*Miss-A* (4:34:20 PM): amazing
Gordon (4:35:00 PM): that good huh
*Miss-A* (4:35:23 PM): i wouldnt have kept coming back if it wasnt
Gordon (4:35:51 PM): gives me a warm fuzzy
*Miss-A* (4:36:09 PM): well thats good
Gordon (4:36:34 PM): it was fun huh…
Gordon (4:36:40 PM):
*Miss-A* (4:36:53 PM): yes it was…
*Miss-A* (4:37:41 PM):
Gordon (4:38:02 PM): hmmm
*Miss-A* (4:38:06 PM): what
Gordon (4:38:20 PM): just remembering
*Miss-A* (4:38:36 PM): we had fun
Gordon (4:39:02 PM): oh yeah
*Miss-A* (4:39:06 PM): lol
*Miss-A* (4:39:28 PM): u broke my record however
Gordon (4:39:50 PM): what record?
*Miss-A* (4:40:13 PM): ive only gone for about an hour….we went for like 2.5
Gordon (4:41:17 PM): oh really
Gordon (4:41:22 PM): what night was that
Gordon (4:41:26 PM): the first or?
*Miss-A* (4:41:29 PM): 2nd
*Miss-A* (4:41:45 PM): first was about an hour and 45 minutes
Gordon (4:42:22 PM): dso i beat good old pete’s record huh?
*Miss-A* (4:42:38 PM): yes, because he can’t control himself when hes with me
*Miss-A* (4:42:55 PM): or so he says
Gordon (4:43:05 PM): oh shoots off to quickly?
*Miss-A* (4:43:14 PM): yes
Gordon (4:43:28 PM): hmmmm
Gordon (4:43:47 PM): i forget did i get you to climax?
*Miss-A* (4:43:59 PM): several of times
Gordon (4:44:16 PM): in one setin?
*Miss-A* (4:44:22 PM): mmhmm
Gordon (4:44:44 PM): hmmm>
*Miss-A* (4:46:27 PM): and i dont regret it either, pete and i werent ‘officially’ together and he told me that he was fucking sabrina while i was in the picture….i never told you that (Remember this part!! It’s very important!!)
Gordon (4:47:27 PM): hmmm i didnt know that
*Miss-A* (4:47:42 PM): i didn’t either until 3 weeks ago
Gordon (4:48:31 PM): i dont regret sleeping with you either
*Miss-A* (4:48:54 PM): really
Gordon (4:49:08 PM): no i wanted to
*Miss-A* (4:49:35 PM): for how long?
Gordon (4:50:21 PM): from when i met you?
Gordon (4:50:38 PM): it was about a few months after i got home
Gordon (4:51:09 PM): why?
*Miss-A* (4:51:17 PM): just curious
*Miss-A* (4:51:23 PM): and uve never told me
Gordon (4:51:47 PM): remeber that night i talked with you at walmart?
*Miss-A* (4:51:51 PM): yes
Gordon (4:52:36 PM): i wanted to sleep with you that night
*Miss-A* (4:53:02 PM): can i ask you something…
Gordon (4:53:06 PM): sure
*Miss-A* (4:53:14 PM): do i give good head?
Gordon (4:53:53 PM): what brough this on first?
*Miss-A* (4:54:43 PM): well pete told me that i give amazing head and that he didn’t think that anyone would beat this heather chick that he was with and he told me that i give amazing head….i have never been told that a day in my life so i was just curious of what you thought
Gordon (4:55:30 PM): yeah you give some great head why did you think i was always telling you if you keep that up i was going to cum in your mouth?
*Miss-A* (4:56:03 PM): why thank you
Gordon (4:56:36 PM): trust i want to
*Miss-A* (4:56:53 PM): u want to?
*Miss-A* (4:56:55 PM): what
Gordon (4:57:19 PM): i wanted to climax in your mouth
Gordon (4:57:27 PM): i know, bad me
*Miss-A* (4:58:04 PM): no
Gordon (4:58:18 PM): no what?
*Miss-A* (4:58:27 PM): u said “i know, bad me” and i said no
Gordon (4:59:26 PM): i see
Gordon (5:00:04 PM): you know something i wish i gotten to do to you better?
*Miss-A* (5:00:19 PM): what is that
Gordon (5:00:41 PM): just between you and me?
*Miss-A* (5:00:47 PM): yes
Gordon (5:01:31 PM): i just wish that night we did it doggy style i could i did it a lot harder and faster
*Miss-A* (5:02:19 PM): the way you did it was amazing…i loved it…i loved evey moment of it
Gordon (5:02:41 PM): but thats something i wish i could of done better
*Miss-A* (5:04:02 PM): well u never know….if we are to be together like that again then you can, but for now im happy where i am and ure happy at where you are at, and we had some amazingly wild nights that i wont forget
Gordon (5:04:32 PM): me either
Gordon (5:05:49 PM): did you ever tell pete?
*Miss-A* (5:06:24 PM): the only thing that bothers me, is that that day that we talked on the phone and told me that we couldnt see each other like that anymore and then i saw you with steph, it hurt
*Miss-A* (5:06:28 PM): no and i never will
Gordon (5:06:48 PM): sorry about that
Gordon (5:07:09 PM): glad you wont pete might kill for that
*Miss-A* (5:08:08 PM): i dont want that to happen at all
Gordon (5:08:14 PM): i can be insencitive alot
*Miss-A* (5:08:33 PM): its alright, but what happened happened and its alright
Gordon (5:08:39 PM): yeah
Gordon (5:08:54 PM): i just remebering good times
*Miss-A* (5:10:07 PM): i know me too….i just don’t anything happening because Pete already told me that he is surprised that i have stuck around as long as i have and all the girls that he has been with has slept with either you, mike, or homer along with him, and for all he knows i havent done any of that i dont want him to find out
Gordon (5:11:46 PM): me and mike/homer have shared one woman
Gordon (5:11:56 PM): me and pete have only shared you
*Miss-A* (5:12:07 PM): thats all that he has told me
*Miss-A* (5:12:28 PM): but still, i dont want him to know at all
Gordon (5:12:45 PM): good by me
Gordon (5:13:14 PM): you still have your cam?
*Miss-A* (5:13:19 PM): mmhmm
Gordon (5:13:42 PM): can you put it on?
*Miss-A* (5:14:41 PM): sure
Gordon (5:15:03 PM): thank you
Gordon (5:16:46 PM): nice to see you
*Miss-A* (5:16:55 PM): i wish i could say the same
Gordon (5:17:09 PM): i knnow, but no cam here
*Miss-A* (5:17:15 PM): its alright
Gordon (5:17:52 PM): hows life with your place now, i heard you mom is out of there
*Miss-A* (5:18:25 PM): yes, she is supposively moving out in the spring but i dont know now….pete and i were gonna take over the house but not anymore
*Miss-A* (5:18:31 PM): shes mellowed out a lot
Gordon (5:19:01 PM): i think he said some thing to me about that
*Miss-A* (5:19:13 PM): what else has he said?
Gordon (5:19:23 PM): thats about it
*Miss-A* (5:20:32 PM): yeah we were talking and he mentioned something having you and steph come and stay with us so u could get out of ur parents or something along those lines
Gordon (5:20:38 PM): but you know him
*Miss-A* (5:20:45 PM): yes i do
Gordon (5:20:52 PM): that might be wierd
*Miss-A* (5:21:00 PM): thats what i was thinking
Gordon (5:21:14 PM): she doesnt like making it when or if my parents may be on the house
*Miss-A* (5:21:51 PM): lol, thats not what i was thinking
Gordon (5:22:02 PM): ?
Gordon (5:22:04 PM): what then?
*Miss-A* (5:22:45 PM): u and me and him living all under the same roof
Gordon (5:23:07 PM): why
Gordon (5:23:12 PM): whats you thinkin?
*Miss-A* (5:23:55 PM): i dont know, i keep thinking of new years last year and how he flipped and all the madness and what happened between u and i
Gordon (5:25:20 PM): his fliping out n me about blasting a few people that deserved it and me and you have some great sex?
*Miss-A* (5:25:47 PM): i dont know i have some weird thinking
*Miss-A* (5:26:03 PM): and i hate watching him flip out because i feel so helpless
*Miss-A* (5:26:23 PM): and it was hard to keep control when i was around you
Gordon (5:26:57 PM): oh?
Gordon (5:27:30 PM): why what were you thinking when i was around before we statrted seeing each other at night?
*Miss-A* (5:27:56 PM): ive wanted to hook up with you for awhile
Gordon (5:28:36 PM): i though you were with pete
Gordon (5:29:54 PM): hmmm
*Miss-A* (5:30:12 PM): pete and me its a weird situation…we were seeing each other i kept faithful, but apparently he didn’t, but thats besides the point, he always told me that we were never together and that hes bad with relationships and what not, and now that he is in florida im still lost, i wanna think we are together, but then i dont know, and even homer says that pete and i have gone out and broken up a ton of times
Gordon (5:30:38 PM): true you guys have
*Miss-A* (5:30:45 PM): have what
Gordon (5:30:54 PM): gone oiut
*Miss-A* (5:30:59 PM): when
*Miss-A* (5:31:02 PM): why dont i know
*Miss-A* (5:31:07 PM): i was always told that we werent
Gordon (5:31:17 PM): you ok?
*Miss-A* (5:31:19 PM): yeah
*Miss-A* (5:31:23 PM): just confused
Gordon (5:32:41 PM): ok i guess i can be confussing
*Miss-A* (5:33:00 PM): no its not u, but he always told me that we werent together and that he was bad at relationships
*Miss-A* (5:33:05 PM): when did we go out and break up?
Gordon (5:33:44 PM): hemit type dating you 2 were
*Miss-A* (5:34:24 PM): ok its been what i thought, we were more than friends with benefits but less than a couple
Gordon (5:35:22 PM): thats what some or most people relationships are
*Miss-A* (5:36:02 PM): well i must been way behind the times then
Gordon (5:36:56 PM): no you were in step
*Miss-A* (5:39:09 PM): for the past year and a half now that i have known him and been seeing him, he was the first person that i liked after my very last relationship….i was so hurt and broken down that i just gave up until the night that him and mike came and got leah and i….
Gordon (5:39:37 PM): oh>?
Gordon (5:39:47 PM): what happened?
*Miss-A* (5:41:10 PM): well it started it out good, until he successfully got me to sleep with him, i remember telling him i didnt want to, but he proceeded to take my virginity and then after that it was like i didnt exsist and i wasn’t important anymore, plus he choose drugs over me and blamed it all on me
Gordon (5:41:48 PM): pete took that
*Miss-A* (5:41:56 PM): no
*Miss-A* (5:42:09 PM): he didnt
Gordon (5:42:16 PM): who?
*Miss-A* (5:42:41 PM): that was all that happened with the past relationship which made me completely stop looking until i met pete….his name is nate
Gordon (5:43:52 PM): oh
*Miss-A* (5:45:05 PM): and then the day i met pete i was so comfortable around him and i felt a connection…i didnt pursue it at first until about september…he makes me feel safe, and that nothing bad will ever happy. he makes me feel that i dont have to try so hard to be something that i am not. that day that u and him had that fight thing (new years) it didnt scare me at all….very little of what he does scares me
Gordon (5:47:16 PM): isee
*Miss-A* (5:48:07 PM): yep
Gordon (5:48:34 PM): sooo
*Miss-A* (5:48:38 PM): yes
Gordon (5:48:52 PM): brb
*Miss-A* (5:48:54 PM): ok
*Miss-A* (5:50:40 PM): i c
*Miss-A* (5:55:51 PM): ill be back later
Gordon (6:19:02 PM): ok
Gordon (7:45:19 PM): ????

Ok, now most of you are probably thinking “God what a fuckin slut”, but no. As you read, a very important piece of information that makes me feel a little better is when I told Gordon that Pete was still sleeping with Sabrina while I was in the picture. Granted I still feel like shit, but I don’t regret sleeping with him. I liked him, and I still do, but I am deeply, deeply in love with Pete and no person is going to change that no matter if I slept with that person or not. But Pete will NEVER EVER know about what we did. Like Gordon said, he’d kill because of that.

-Amanda