Sweet, simple, and to the point…

Right Now

.x. Time: 11:51 pm

.x. Wearing: White Aeropostale shirt and jeans

.x. Drinking: Nothing

.x. Munching: Nothing

.x. Talking: Pete

.x. Feeling: Sick to my stomach

.x. Tunes: “Happens All The Time” -Cold
.Quick.Hey there kids. Just an entry to let you all know what is going on with me. Well I’ve been looking for a job almost all week. I am going to start calling people on Monday. So far I have an applications at Uno’s and 2 gas stations. Something better come through. I am so sick of being home.

I’ve been spending time with John. A lot for the matter. The other night I went over to his house and we got some movies…“Christmas With the Kranks” and “Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.” We watched the first one and liked it but we didn’t care so much for “Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.” Other things came up that were more appealing. After the movies we just sat on his floor, me between his legs under a blanket and downloaded music like we use to. We sat in the dark, the only light we had was the computer screen and listened to music. It was so amazing. I loved it. He has given me so much money this week. I just don’t know where I would have been this week without his help. I feel really bad though cause I can’t do that for him. *sigh*

Tomorrow is the yearly breakfast with Grami, Aunt Jeni, my siblings and my cousins. I don’t know how it’s going to be. I actually dreading this year seeing that Grami is so upset with me. I just hope there isn’t a lot of tension.

But I am going to cut this entry short. I just had my feelings smashed into the ground. I’ve been talking to Pete and the subject of the ex a.k.a my replacement came up. Read this…

*Tinker Bell*: oh man. and u got with her why? just out of sheer curiosity
*-*Pete*-*: she already had what I can’t have plus she looked good in tight shorts and a bikini
*Tinker Bell*: o
*Tinker Bell*: is that why u didnt want to work things out with me?
*-*Pete*-*: she has kids and I can’t have that
*-*Pete*-*: what can I say I’m simple*
*Tinker Bell*: yeah
*Tinker Bell*: thats just what i was thinking
*-*Pete*-*: I’m a simpleton always will be
*Tinker Bell*: yes i know. *sigh*
*-*Pete*-*: what am i to do can’t get a brain transplant cause it just won’t work
*Tinker Bell*: to do about what Pete?

*All because him and I couldn’t have kids is the reason why he went with her. She had an already “pre-made” family. What he wants. I have tears just going at the moment. It’s been like that the past week too…a lot of crying and headaches.

I’ll update later. PLCG!!

-A*