Still on Hiatus BUT giving you guys an update

Hey everyone of my OD family. How has everyone been? Things have been alright on this end. Extremely busy. We moved into our apartment. Still don’t have the internet so when I get a chance to find time to get over to my mom’s is when I have the internet. Anyways…

The apartment is going well. I like it. It’s a little weird still living on my own, however, I like being on my own. It’s weird not having my mom or sisters around, but it’s good.

Pat and I are falling apart, or so it seems. To me it feels like we just exist together. We argue almost on a daily basis. I can’t stand to look at him sometimes. He makes me feel so bad sometimes. He throws into my face that he’s the one that makes the money. WELL it’s not my fault. Someone has to raise the kids. Plus his schedule got changed again. [Now he’s working from 8 at nigh to 8 in the morning, so he’s sleeping all day.] He just makes me feel so bad about being a mom. I do what I can when I can. I can’t get a job due to his schedule and the job that I had in line ended up changing their ours to 10 hour shifts because they don’t want to be open on Fridays.

Easter was interesting. The babies and I did it together. Pat so nicely sat to the side and wanted to play Playstation instead of celebrating his kids’ first easter. It got to me.

I find myself wanting to have an affair. Is that a bad thing? I know I wouldn’t do it, I just play with thought. What if I was with someone else? What if they treated me better? What if I was with someone that makes me happy daily? I told Pat he has until the end of the lease of the apartment to shape up or else when the lease is up we are going to go our separate ways. It’s either we try and fix this and do it together or else I’ll go with the kids and get half of his money anyways. I don’t ask a lot. All I ask is for help. Help me raise the babies, help me clean up OUR apartment. I hate feeling like a maid and a doormat.

Speaking of the babies, they have gotten SO big. Riley is crawling and Owen wants to just shoot up and walk. They went to the doctor on the 18th for there 9 month check up. 9 MONTHS!!! Riley weighs 21 pounds 3 ounces, she is 28 and 1/4 tall and her head is 18 inches. Owen weighs 19 pounds and 8 ounces, he is 28.5 inches tall and his head is 17.5 inches. Owen had another ear infection and this weird rash. He broke out on his arms, legs and his face. The doctor is assuming that he had an allergic reaction to the Amoxicilin he was on. The kicker of that is that the rash didn’t kick in until 3 days AFTER he was doing taking the medicine. They put him on Zythromax for his ear and for the rash they put him on Pediapred. The rash is gone but he’s still playing with his ear. I’ll call the doctor this week to see if he wants to see his sooner than the 8th. Other than that they are REALLY REALLY good. Growing like weeds.

To my OD Family, I love and miss you guys. Hopefully soon I will have internet and will be able to write more and post pictures. Just don’t take me off your favorites. I will be back soon…I promise.

Well it’s 9:44pm and I’m going to get going. Until next time…toodles.

Love,
♥ Amanda

.The Angel.