So I cried today, and it was over you….
xRight Nowx[Clock Says]: 9:33 PM
[Expensive Fabrics]: PJs
[Wash It All Down]: Nothing
[Swallow It All]: Nothing
[Feeling]: Awful
[Inside Your Head]: One blurry mess
[Chatting It Up]: No one
[Ear Candy]: My December -Linkin Park
[Wish Upon A Star]: To not cry
xDear DiaryxSo today I cried. And it was over none other than John. What the hell is wrong with me?! I shouldnt feel so awful about the whole situation. I shouldnt feel like its all my fault that this is going on. I went with Heidi mom today and she had to go to her back doctors so I stayed and sat in her car. I was listen to music and I just got to thinking about everything and the next thing I knew I was crying about this whole situation. Why did he have to do this? He made this all out to be my fault. Everything would have been just fine if he didnt freak out about me not calling him for 3 days, even though I had full intentions of calling him on Sunday. He didnt have to go all postal, yell at me, and then flip the situation around to be my fault. In a way I miss him, but I just dont know what to do. He scares me now. He made me cry. He made me feel like the worst person in the world, and I dont know how to forgive him for that. What to do?!
Anyways, Leah and I are having a fall out. Her and I have nothing really left in common. Its crazy. It was just her and I at her moms house and none of us said 2 words. We sat in complete silence for an hour. All she kept wanting to do is go back to Geneva. I think hers and my friendship is ceasing to exist.
On a lighter note, my dads second wife got a hold of me. My step sister Kari had the baby. I now have a niece. Her name is Stacie Lynn. She was born January 4, 2006 at 8:44pm. She weighed in at 8lbs 8oz and being 21 ¼ inches. I am so excited. I dont have a picture of her yet, but as soon as I do I will post it up here for you to see.
Still dont know whats going on with the job. They STILL havent gotten my drug test back. Which is odd seeing that I have never done drugs a day in my life illegal ones that is.
Hmm, what else? Nothing really. I just needed to write down this stuff so I could get it off my chest. Its still in my head, but what can I honestly do?
With that said, I am going to go for now. PLCG!!
-A*
The memory diary .The Angel.
Awe, I hope you start feeling better! Don’t let him get to you like this. I know it’s hard, but he shouldn’t make you feel like this. It’s definitely not your fault at all. Good luck with the job, I hope they get back to you soon. Have a great day sweetie! ♥♥
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I really like my makeover. Thanks! Only a few things I would like changed, but the thought has escaped my mind. I’ll note you later if it pops back in.
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hey lady!!! how have you been? good i hope. im good. im trying to re-do my diary…sigh…not having much luck! I saw your brother…he cut his hair like dustin…it looks weird…lol Well leave me a note when u get a chance
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