Meant for so much more

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All I want is to be in the safety of your arms….

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[listening] Switchfoot “Meant to Live“
[time] 5:36om
[mood] So-so
[drink it down] Nothin
[take it off] Capris and my NFG shirt
[talking to] No one

Hey everyone, its me!! I still exist!! Its just been such an awful week. In my previous entry I told you that I would fill you in on what is going on and so that is what I am going to do. Well lets see. Mom and I fought like no tomorrow. She told me that I had to stop going to court and doing my board meetings for government because Dan “got a job“ and she needed sitter. I flipped out, and she said that I was being selfish and all that stuff. So I left for a half hour and came home. Then Friday when I came home from school I was locked out. Then I went to talk to her in the bathroom about my ball dress and she freaked out over my dress. So after that we stood in the kitchen and screamed, literally, screamed at each other. I made her cry with some of the things that I had to say. But after that I went in my room and talked to Russell on the phone. Told him what was going on and he helped me calm back down. Then Grami called and I told her what was going on and she told me that she was proud that I calmed down so well. Then Saturday mom got an attitude so I went with Leah and stayed with her that night. I came home Sunday at 9 to go to bed and then Monday I went to school. Alicia told me that there was a meeting on Monday so I said I should go to her house and go to the meeting from there. She said alright so I called my mom in the office and her and I got going again in the office. I ended up going and not coming home until Tuesday night after school. She screamed at me again and she thinks that the only reason why I stayed there was so I could fuck Russell. So I was like, dude, just because he’s going to the ball with me that doesn’t mean nothing. (YES I HAVE A BALL DATE. IM GOING WITH RUSSELL!!) After mom left for work I called Alicia in tears and she had Nichole come and get me. I talked to a social worker and did a lot of thinking. I didn’t come home until Thursday night. And now its like nothing happened. Its strange. Then I went to the doctors yesterday. I got put on Anti-Depressants. Plus I have sort of disorder…and I asked the doctor to put it in simple English and he said that I just have really bad PMS, and I’m lactose and tolerant. Then I went and got B last night and talked to my dad. Nothing major. Its been interesting.

Well I’m gonna get outta here!! PLCG!!

-((Amanda))-