Just to let you all know that I am alright

Good morning everyone. It’s 1:54am in NY right now and thought I’d write. Ever been so tired that you are so full of energy and don’t feel tired at all. Well that’s me right at this very moment.

Babies are great. Almost 2 months old. We went to the doctor last Wednesday. Riley now weighs 7lbs. 4oz. and Owen now weighs 7lbs. 1oz. They haven’t done Owen’s circumsition yet. We go back to the doctor on the 21st of this month and we’ll either talk about setting up the appointment to do it, or they’re going to do it that day.

Me, well, I’m alive. I’m on Effexor [my anti-depressant], Prilosec OTC [heartburn], iron, and a multi-vitamin. I feel the effects of it when I don’t take them. I tend to get more violent towards people…not Owen or Riley…but towards Pat, my mom, and people in that nature. Since I’ve had them, and seeing I do this alone, I just get so fustrated.

Speaking of Pat. Still a part-time parent. I’ve told him that I’ve had had it. I don’t know what I want to do. I don’t wear my engagement rings, I don’t wear the wedding band that we got and gave to each other on our year anniversary, I don’t even feel comfortable telling him I love him. Sometimes I just do it out of habit.

Anyways, tomorrow/today, I go to the doctors for my 6 week check up. Then the start to get a job and get my life back to some order.

But yes, I’m alright, babies are good. I just haven’t had a lot of time to get on the computer let alone get on OD. I’ll try as much as I can to update.

Now it’s 2:19am and I need to go get some sleep…or atleast try. Until next time…toodles!!

♥ Amanda

.The Angel.