If Thats Not Love!!
If Thats Not Love
By: Amanda
Dedication: This thing is dedicated to none other than Nate. But in the next entry after this, I dont know what is going to happen
Have you ever had someone in your life that makes you think that nothing could be wrong; nothing could stand in your way?! Well I do. All of the qualities in this person are EVERYTHING that I am looking for. He makes me feel like my feet never touch the ground, like I am on a cloud, floating. For this person, Id do anything for him. I know people say they would do anything with a few exceptions, but I really mean it. Id murder, id rob, id surrender everything I have to make sure a tear doesnt fall down his face. If there was a way that a person could take all the stars and give them to someone Id do that as well. Id do anything form giving him a piece of gum, to dying for him. If thats not love then I dont know what is.
On day, I saw you. I saw you standing in a crowded hall and all that I could see was you. Everything faded, and for seconds it felt like it was just you and I standing there. When my eyes met yours, I knew that we were going to be together. In that split second, I knew that I have found the person that I was brought to this Earth for. This person Im suppose to be with, laugh with, cry with, make love to, everything to the good to the bad, I knew that you were that person. People say that I am too young to even think that I remotely ready to take on these kinds of emotions, but to me I dont think you can put an age sticker on love. You can be 5, meet someone and know them your entire life, and realize that that person is the one. You can be 105 and meet someone once and fall instantly in love. You get weak in the knees, you start to shake, your hands sweat, and you pray to God that you dont mess up. If thats not love then I dont know what is.
After that day I sat and thought about you, wondering when the day would come to where I would see you again, because I honestly thought that I was never going to see you again. When my friend said that your friend liked me, I figured that God was listening to my prayers, my cries, and my thoughts. It got me a way to see you and talk to you. When I saw you the feeling of nervous, the feeling of joy, the feeling of scared, and the feeling of relief brushed over me. I was so excited that I got to see you that day that I couldnt speak. Just being in your presence was good enough for me. I kept my distance from you, because of the way you made yourself out to be. That saying, looks can be deceiving, its true. The person inside is what I fell in love with. The person inside is the most precious thing that there is about a person. I see you for you, not what you want other people to see you as. If thats not love then I dont know what is.
For 2 years I thought of you. I thought of what it would be like if I could touch you, kiss you, feel you, be able to say that you were mine, give my heart to, and little did I know, with all my wishing and dreaming, that that dream would come true. I got to be by your side. Your girl, your love, the one that you wanted to spend forever with. I thought I was something special. Thats why I let you take my virginity. If I didnt love you, and feel that same love back, I wouldnt have let you get passed first base. But I could and can feel the love that you had/have for me, so I let you. You promised me that world, everything under the sun. And I believe you, even after all the dilemma and drama that we have gone through. If thats not love then I dont know what is.
I love you Nate. It doesnt matter what happens. Whatever you decided, Ill love you always. I know you love me and I love you and thats all that matters. I want to marry you, run away with you. Just run to where ever out hearts take us. I want to be with you!! It doesnt matter how long I have to wait, Ill be here waiting for you to come around. I LOVE YOU if thats not love then I dont know what is!!
Have you ever had someone in you life that makes you think that nothing could be wrong; nothing could stand in your way?! Well I do.