I WONT REST TILL I FIND U

I HAVE TO FIND NATE!!  THERES A WARRANT OUT FOR HIS ARREST CAUSE HE DIDNT APPEAR TO COURT THE OTHER NIGHT.  GOD DAMN IT!!  I HAVE TO FIND HIM.  ME!!  NOT THE COPS, NOT AMANDA, NOT ANYONE…..ME…..AND THATS WHAT I INTEND TO DO!!!!  THIS WHOLE MESS IS ALL HEATHERS FAULT.  SHES THE ONE TO BLAME!!  IF SHE NEVER PUT MOVES ON HIM OR ANYTHING HE WOULDNT BE IN THIS BIG MESS.  SHE MESSED WITH HIS HEAD AND HIS HEART AND MADE HIM BELIEVE THAT SHE LOVED HIM!!  SHE LIED ABOUT BEING PREGNANT…..SHE TOOK THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AWAY FROM ME…..I AM MADLY, HOPELESSLY, UTTERLY IN LOVE WITH HIM.  I WONT REST TILL I FIND HIM.  I WONT BE ABLE TO CONSENTRATE RIGHT UNTIL I FIND HIM.  I WILL FIND HIM AND I WILL BRING HER DOWN.  AND THATS A PROMISE THAT I INTEND TO KEEP. 

TO ALL THE PEOPLE THAT HAVE HURT ME OVER THE YEARS…..I DONT CARE.  SURE IT MIGHT HAVE HURT THEN, BUT ITS NEVER HURT LIKE THIS!!  AND TO THE ONE PERSON THATS HURT ME, AND WAS SUPPOSE TO BE MY FRIEND…..YOU TAKE SOMETHING I LOVE…..OH NO NO NO NO NO!! 

I GOTTA RUN…..GOTTA CLEAN UP A BIT AND WAIT FOR LEAH TO GET HOME SO I CAN GO OUT AND FIND HIM.  PLCG!!

*~*AMANDA*~*